Anxiety after ringing bell

Hi New to BC welcome to the forum and so glad that all the treatment is at an end that's fantastic news.

Ill bet that you have been on auto pilot for months now just to get through the treatment so whats actually happened to  you gets put on the back burner for a while and you take each step as it comes. You are also surrounded by people everywhere during treatment then it all finishes and you look around and its only little old you and you are alone in this for the first time in ages. Put those two things together and hiding away and having a cry is completely normal at this point and believe me when I tell you that you are not alone in feeling like that we all have at some point.

I wonder if you might do me a favour though and have a look on the internet for a paper written by a Dr Peter Harvey entitled "After the treatment finishes- what next". The main reason for asking you to do this is that when you read that paper you will see that you have entered another phase of this disease the Recovery phase and hopefully a lot of what you read in there will make sense as to how you are feeling and why you are feeling like that. 

Certainly if you feel that this is dominating your life and you cant function then please do see your GP and have  a chat with them but try the paper reading first.

Sending some huge big hugs your way for now. xxx 

I have just finished radiotherapy. And I agree you are over the moon x. But it’s a very strange time as well feelings of. Have they got it all.  Will it come back x. Side effects from hormone therapy   Will I ever feel like ME again xxx 

Hi, I know how u feel. I finished radiotherapy on Monday and got to ring the bell as well. Feels weird because I should be happy and everyone thinks it's over but I will Still be at the hospital every 3 weeks for my herceptin injection. It doesn't feel over, am I going to feel like this until I finish getting the injections in March 2022. Or will it all hit me then when I'm back to work and trying to be normal again. It's hard to know how to feel anymore 

I'm glad I'm not the only one feeling like this. I rang the bell yesterday after finishing chemo still rads and meds to go but a very emotional day and found myself bursting into tears throughout the day. Xx

Omg everything you said I’m feeling.  I just feel so knotted up but can’t pin point it. 

I rang the bell finishing chemo on Tuesday which was extremely emotional and I still have 15 sessions of radiotherapy to face in 3-4 weeks followed by 5yrs of hormone therapy so its not over and never will be, the doubt in the back of my mind is when will it return, I have to live with that thought for the rest of my life.

Thankyou for your wise words.  Chemo and rad finished just hormone and hercepton left. Was so with it while all that was going on but now I feel overwhelmed by the littlest thing. I will try to find the paper you referenced. 

It’s a journey and a half isn’t it.  Chemo done rad finished a week ago now hercepton fir a year and 5 yr hormones.  
The anxiety is hitting now but like me you will get there honey.   Upwards and onwards.  

That's exactly how I feel. The thought of reoccurrence will never leave you unfortunately but I've been told that it wont be the forefront of your mind over time. Wishing you well. We are just 2 days apart re finishing chemo and moving on x

Wow ! I've just read that paper. Thank you so much for referring me to it. It's brilliant. Next step for me is Radiotherapy, but that paper is so worthwhile and has helped me already.