Found a lump

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Im a 48yr lady who has found a lump (not sure im in right place) I have mental health problems severe anxiety BPD and PTSD due to things that happened as a child . Im only telling u this so u understand where im coming from . I had covid 19 last year I was put into induced coma 9 days and 19 days in ICU so still getting over that . So couple of weeks ago now im sitting on my sofa watching googlebox  and I did a breast exam (bit strange I know ) Anyway I found a lump that horrid sinking feeling u get when u no its bad ! I grabbed my partners hand and asked him to confirm what I already it was there , next day after several attempts I finally got the courage to call the dr got a appointment that day ,all morning I  kept telling my self it was nothiing while she did the examination I had my fingers crossed but no she found it could see it in her face she got me urgent appointment monday 4th . I no it could b a few different things cysts etc .But im terrified anxiety though the roof dont think ive stopped crying its constantly in my thoughts I know im not in the same league as u ladies but im scared stiff and on verge of nevous break down please help 

  • Hello . I have been where you are now with the breast lump you have found. Please don't despair IF it turns out to be breast cancer it is very treatable these days. I am glad your GP has got you an urgent referral (as most of them are ) and they will carry out any necessay tests as part of the same appointment. As you quite rightly say it could be several things not just a breast cancer. You will hopefully be told on Monday what they think it is and maybe give you an idea of the treatment options. You have done the right thing by referring yourself. But however much you worry right now it will not change the eventual diagnosis so try to keep busy and distract yourself. I know that is not easy but it is well worth the effort believe me. Maybe you can contact the Macmillan  specialist nurses by phone - they were very reassuring when I was just where you are now.  Hopefully other members will come on here to advise you  very soon. Sending you big and heartfelt hugs xx Kwissy

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    FormerMember in reply to Kwissy

    Kwissy thanks so much for replying just read ur old blogs ur Amazing been there come through it x 

  • Hi , lovely reply already from , just wanted to add my support. It’s totally understandable that you’re scared and anxious. Try to keep repeating to yourself that most breast lumps are not cancer. They are innocent until proven guilty.

    I found a lump at a very similar age to you. After a series of inconclusive tests over a couple of weeks (it’s all much quicker now, this was 15 years ago), it was removed and turned out to be a fibroadenoma (benign). A few years later, more lumps which turned out to be cysts. Finally 2 years ago I found another lump which was cancerous. But very treatable.

    I am hoping that you are receiving support for your mental health and I know that some people here have had help to cope with anxiety in the build up to getting a diagnosis. It’s a really horrible stage, you’re in limbo, waiting to know what you’re dealing with. If your GP doesn’t know how scared and fragile you are feeling, please do tell them.  

    Keep posting and let us know how you get on at the clinic. And I’d echo ’s suggestion to phone the Macmillan helpline to speak to someone there for reassurance. 

    Wishing you well and sending love and hugs, HFxx

    HappyFeet1 xx
    Don’t be afraid to cry. It will free your mind of sorrowful thoughts. – Hopi
  • Hello , ive been there in younger years, in the days that cysts used to get surgically removed, I had several. All was then quiet for quite a few years, but in the same breast  the lump I found did prove to be cancer.

    But please rest assured that treatments have come on a huge amount and breast cancer, though horrible, is very treatable and IF that’s what you do indeed have, it’s early.

    im sorry about your problems, but please do NOT Google, (it’s usually out of date and has scare stories) but trust sites like this and also use the helpline as you’ll talk to experienced nurses. 

    In the meantime try to keep mind and body busy so that you don’t dwell on it.

    Hugs xxx

    Moomy

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    FormerMember in reply to HappyFeet1

    Hey happy feet thank you for reply to my post I do have a very supportive partner but for me only another woman can truly understand how it feels last nite as I went to bed theres another lump first one that I went to the drs with just behind the nipple this just underneath my boob now im stressed beyond belief partner is asleep and im on sofa sobbing my heart out . I survived covid surely life isnt so cruel to give my this aswell 

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    FormerMember in reply to moomy

    Hey moomy thanks for ur message im hoping its is just cysts but u no when u get that feeling deep down ive almost convinced myself it is cancer and no matter what im doing its like a big black cloud ready to rain on me when I had covid I had to do it on my own now we r in tier 4 probs gonna b the same dont wanna do it alone