update

Hi Guys and Gals.....

Well just a update really, had MRI last Tuesday on the 10th which was a giggle under the circumstances, never been to one, however sorry but the Radiographer was very easy on the eye, should i say that, needless to say first time  i put the gowns on wrong, and then i stripped off not fully realising that you can leave your bottom half on ha ha ha much to the amusement of the nurse that was in attendance bless her, god knows where my head was at. Anyway the MRI itself not as bad as i thought it would be, i found that making up tunes to the constant banging and clattering helped, as im used to that noise, due to sharing a house at one time with 4 unruly teenagers. 

So everything went ok, got through that, unfortunately had the bad news that my oldest son his partner had miscarried their baby so that was a bad day. 

Prior to this my manager has let me work from home, as she does not want me to risk catching the lovely COVID and then this potentially delaying any treatment or surgery, was a bit gutted but totally understand, had a slight meltdown because i felt that that was another hold this dam ninja had on me. 

Anyway fast forward a week, and its been up and down, emotional but i expected that, got a telephone contact from the BC on Thursday of last week to say that i have to go back on the 26th November, due to the MRI showing enhancements in both breasts, however the Ninja is behaving and has not got any bigger. I am aware that this can happen but again sets the seeds growing of worry, its weird the capacity we have to take things on board and go with it, i have found this over the last few weeks. 

So i will be spending half of my birthday having ultrasounds and potential biopsies but small price to pay for enjoying plenty more birthdays that is how i like to think of it. If all goes ok on the 26th then i should be on schedule for surgery, and the rest of the treatment plan, radiotherapy and hormone therapy, does anyone know if you can request the Oncotype testing service?

If things do not go so well then looking at surgery mid December, followed by treatment etc. 

I have read so many stories on here which have filled me with such positive vibes, so i thank you all for that. Its strange how life rolls on, some days i can almost forget that i have something inside of me that is sitting there waving its ugly tendrils mocking me, and then some days it hits like a slap in the face with a wet sock. As you can tell by now i have quite a dark sense of humour, it helps..........

How has everyone found dealing with relationship side of things, i had a meltdown the other day that my 'best friend' would not find me attractive, or that i would totally go off that side of things, not the most important thing i know, anyway we did have a good chat about it and a laugh and cry, as he is going through some health issues himself. 

That's enough of me rambling if anyone wants to chat vent or just needs a ear I'm more than happy to be a sounding board. 

In the great words of Buzz Lightyear 'To infinity and beyond', and yes i have had a weekend of Toy Story with my lovely uncomplicated beautiful granddaughter.