Waiting for my one stop breast clinic appointment.....terrified

Hi Lovemelovemyshoes welcome to the forum and so sorry to hear how frightened that you are.

The first thing to say is take a big deep breath this could be many things before anything sinister and remember our lymph nodes fight infection in our bodies so it could yet be the reason for the enlarged nodes.

Did they give you any further information about what's next for you or not?

Its ok to feel scared and to have a cry as well but don't read anymore just now and I'll bet you have been on Dr Google?  Dr Google is a wonderful thing but is not always reliable nor accurate so take what it says with a pinch of salt . You are definetely going to the right place to get checked out on Thursday and hopefully the news will be positive for you.

Will be thinking of you and sending some huge big hugs your way meantime. xxxxxx

And breathe .  

main point if, and I say if, it is breast cancer it’s very, very treatable .  Clear mammogram less than 6 months ago would mean caught early.  You are not checking out anywhere soon xxx

Hi granny59

i think I’m more worried about the internal nodes they were the ones the doctor seemed more concerned about.  Asked me if there was ovarian/bowel cancer in the family which thankfully there isn’t .   I’m so anxious, emotional just totally overwhelmed and can’t think straight.   Hubby and kids are so supportive but they have t read what I have.  Chest X-ray was clear it was the cat scan with dye that picked it up.   I’m pacing the floor, crying and I know I need to calm down I just can’t seem to get it together I admire anyone that does they are much better than me.   

Thanks for for your reply daughter is at work and just kicked hubby out to go the pub for a pint I needed a bit of time to myself.   Ty x 

Hi Grogg

thanks for your reply and I know there are so many more people suffering far more than me atm.   Basically I’m just scared at the fact of not being here for my kids anymore.  My life is them and after just getting them through the past 18months after losing their dad so suddenly I’m just at breaking point.  

Just have two more days then see the consultant.   Internal mammary worry me everything I have read about them is bad news.   

Ty so much for replying it’s so much appreciated. X

Sending more hugs your way now stop pacing and have a seat or you will wear your carpet out.

Its ok not to feel together you will when you need to most but please do let us know how you get on as you are not alone and we will be thinking of you.

Granny59 

ty will do x 

Dear

i had my mammogram November 2017 , no symptoms. We had a big wedding in Glasgow just after Christmas , so we were away for a few days . Came home to the recall letter and I totally lost it !!! Thankfully my children were away back to their own homes in other parts of UK . Like you I cried and panicked , I just kept saying “ I’m going to die” the tears my hubby  and I shed would have filled every dry river bed in the world ! But we stuck together like glue , even managed to bring in the New Year with neighbours . My husband kept saying you don’t know anything yet , it could  be nothing . You do need to cry but don’t shut your husband out , you need each other . 
I did HAVE breast cancer and in my lymph nodes . I’m due my 2 year review , all going well and No sign of disease - NED . So hopefully I will be a 2 year NEDDY . Ladies at my aqua class are 11 years and 21 years NEDDY. 
if you can , go today and get your hair done , get a manicure - polish only - NO gel just incase of the tests - can’t read your saturation levels through gel . 
Read my profile (- tap on my name ) I’ve made it . 
be kind to yourself today , I’m off to meet my wonderful friend for 3 hr coffee !!! She was an acquaintance before my journey and now she is one of my closest friends . 
Let us know how you get on tomorrow , I cried  my way through my first appointment - so I class you as normal . 
hug your family . 
This could all be something or nothing , I need to consult my diary to remember what happened , be gentle on yourself today , play inspirational music - like the music from the Trolls Movie - Get back up again . It’s on Spotify. 

take care 

love 

Ruby Rose  

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=IFuFm0m2wj0&t=0s

hope this works ! I played it loud continuously!! 

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Hi

What you are feeling is normal at this stage, I am sure we are all familiar with those feelings. I was the same last year putting everything in order just incase anything happened to me. But I am 7 months post surgery for mastectomy now and so thankful they caught the BC early. Try not to think too far ahead take a day at a time. If it is the news you do not want to hear there is so much treatment these days and your consultant will explain it all to you. Keep us posted on how you get on Thursday, will be thinking about you. You will get a lot of support on this site, ask any questions I am sure someone will have advice for you. We have been where you are now.

Take Care

Rita