Chances are this is because an annual review is on the horizon and that always brings those old 'what if's back out to play :-/
Stress and worries can also cause fatigue as they stop you relaxing - Have you tried any of the 'mindfullness' apps or videos to help you de-stress ?
You could have a read through this https://community.macmillan.org.uk/cfs-file/__key/communityserver-discussions-components-files/38/8080.after-the-treatment-finishes_2D00_then-what.pdf to see if would be helpful.
I have to agree with Dreamthief maybe it is the upcoming 'two years' marker that triggers the rise in worries, panic attacks and the fatigue. I do think it is normal at 'anytime' these feelings can raise their heads and the fatigue, well I for one am struggling big time with no motivation, wanting to sleep all the time and just not being able to catch up on anything and so the circle repeats......
I think you are normal, this is just how it is - maybe as time moves forward we learn to deal and live with it all better - but, I reckon we will always be on the look out and always have the wonders and worries.
I know my first year anniversary I was expecting to be jumping for joy and waving flags..... it was nothing of the kind, I seemed to be on more of a downer than ever.... my own thoughts to this was, maybe I was that worked up with what was going on at the original time, when the anniversary came around I then relived and mourned for the person and life as it had been (and all the 'if only's). Second year was much the same, not as bad, but not jumping for joy or flag waving - I have not put it down to.... I won't ever really feel happy about this time of the year... because it brings back the bad side of what happened and never knowing what it in front of me. I even did a thread about how Iow I was feeling.
So .... I think you are normal and so are your feelings.
Sending love and hugs xxx
I'm hoping this makes sense - only my mind says one thing and my fingers type whatever they like x
Thank you so much for your reply. It's so easy to get tangled in anxious feelings and exhaustion xx it's amazing to have you guys to support x thank you xx
I found this good for helping to sit with anxiety . My daughter suffers with OCD and has frequent panic attacks and we find not engaging or trying to reason with her thoughts causing the panic attacks reduces the time they last. You can not reason yourself out of a panic attack as your thoughts are as smart as you ! You have to sit with them xx
Hi Panic and anxiety are the pits. Mine got worse after OH had heart attack 15 years ago . So that was a panic about what ifs not reality.
I did seek help from a Human Givens Counsellor which was near miraculous. I have always triex to be non confrontational with my bc. It's a few of my cells that over reacted. I used visualisation during radiotherapy and from time to time with tamoxifen. Imagined R/T detaching cells and sweeping them out and tablets like marshmallows enveloping hormones that might be an issue.
I try to practice mindfulness and agree with Grogg accept the panic. It is how you feel now. You don't have to like it just let it be.
I find this Mark Williams video ( many more of his on YouTube ) a great help
I’m coming up for 2 years in, diagnosed in late February 2018, (though I was pretty certain before I saw my GP) and I guess you never, ever forget. But dealing with panic; well like Grogg says, I think you need to go with it but also try to divert your thoughts and ideas maybe.
I’ve found being busy, walking, enjoying hobbies and yoga have helped me, each of them can be classified as mindfulness as you really do need to be ‘in the moment’. I’ve also got a disabled husband who is still fiercely independent so looking out for him can sometimes be busy!
Have you sought any help, like counselling from your unit, joining any local groups, or something else to help? I suspect anniversaries will always get to us!
Ah thank you so much for your reply x No tbh this is the first time I've reached out to chat really. Being mighty well trying to lol. I have an amazing supportive partner and a young son. I guess I don't always want to burden them with my worries so they don't worry. Everyone is so friendly on here.
Sometimes it's great not to just feel on your own with it xx
Thank you x I certainly feel a bit more normal now x Everything you say is how it is. The fatigue gets me but in between work and everything else just a ten minute nap helps. Trouble is Tamoxifen stops the estrogen. I didn't realise how much we need that as women lol x
