Breast clinic next week and can’t stop thinking about it!

hi Laura  

welcome on board, sorry you've had to come and find us

I always had lumpy breasts, I have four kids and each time I'd get sent for a mammogram but never anything sinister.

Then I had a range of symptoms but nothing really obvious and certainly nothing that would indicate breast cancer. 

At the same time I had my first routine mammogram, which was reported as 'clear'.

in 2015 I had a premonition I wouldn't see Christmas, it was alarming and so I booked a private mammogram and the team were amazingly kind but clearly worried about what they were seeing. 

After that I think I was just in denial.  I just felt 'this can't be happening to me'

You've acted quickly, that's good and you're being taken seriously, also good

The waiting is a complete nightmare 

I need to put the pasta on ... be right back ...

The thing that bothered me was the cough that I then realised I'd had for about six months.

That was 2015, I'm still here. 

there's some survival stories under my signature at the bottom, have a read through those.

Then you need plenty of things to keep your mind occupied.

see the AWAKE thread ...

Carolyn

xxx

Thank you for taking the time to reply Carolyn28 I will take a look at the Awake section and success stories to try and keep busy and stay positive until Tuesday. It can’t come soon enough x 

Hi Laura

It is so difficult and stressful waiting for appointments , each day is so tough. It is normal to think that way, I have had a mastectomy and often check my right breast for lumps and panic thinking it is different some days than others, I really think when we are so stressed we are completely irrational. But you have an appointment at the best place , just hold on in there Laura. I did not have a lump , my BC was picked up on a routine mammogram, hit me for six and I definitely found the waiting for appointments, scans etc was worse than having the operation. The support is amazing on this site so don't be afraid to contact the group anytime, there will always be someone to offer you reassurance and support. It definitely helps to share your concerns with people who have been in same position as you are in. Hopefully you have not got BC , maybe its an infection of some sort, this happens. It is often easier to chat with strangers than close family as its so difficult for them. Happy Birthday for tomorrow, keep us posted how you get on next week.

Regards

Rita

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