AWAKE.........

Oh Mazza10, horrible being deaf. I do hope it clears up soon, and when you go back make sure they clear out your left ear. You can't go on like that!

Big hugs xx

Hi all, had a funny old day today. 

Counselling this am, and she told me she would be on holiday for the next 2 weeks. I wish she had told me earlier as I have been trying to fit in more appts(never ending) and it would have been so much easier had I known. Feel let down.

Then I heard that 2 friends have died suddenly this week. One I was at uni with, age 77, found dead in bed. The other was a member of my opera group, early 50s, apparently fit and healthy. 

DH is very stressed at present, been going on for months, admin and financial, and I had a meltdown this am, could not deal with it any more. Feel so bad not supporting him, as he has supported me, butI just cannot deal with anything else at the moment. 

 The 2 deaths have made me see it in proportion though. I am very lucky to be still here after what I have been through, we are together and that is all that matters. Still very emotional though

Will be better tomorrow.

 Night night. Xxx

Awww...just come in to find your sad post.Sometimes it CAN all become too too much.I will say a lil prayer for you tonight xxxxx

Two of my close friends died in the last few months....and it is horrible.You just can’t beleive they are not walking this earth any more.They were my age group too.I just couldnt believe it.One was a little younger than me..We used to have such fun together ,walking in the sunshine and laughing.(...xxthe words to “Seasons in the sun” were completely appropriate xx)

Thank you so much Violetsniff. 

Big hugs xxxx

Oh seaspirit44 I am so sorry you are feeling down and condolences on your friends. That must have been a massive shock.

You are so kind and supportive to everyone on here.  We are allowed our melt downs and make sure you are kind to yourself. 

I am sending you a massive virtual hug

Night night sweet lady xxx

seaspirit44 and Violetsniff, so sorry to hear you have both lost friends over the last few weeks. Losing friends is never easy but somehow it seems harder when you have had a Cancer diagnosis. We have been made to think about our own mortality and that's made more difficult when we hear such sad news. Be kind to yourselves and talk to us if you need to, we are here to listen and to support. 

Sending you both a Big

Hug. You are both so kind to others it's now time to be kind to yourselves for a bit! Xxxxx

Big Group Hug anyone?

I think your right about that we look at our own mortality LondonLass we all know we can’t live forever but we hope we can all have a long and happy one. Somehow when it’s down to serious illnes we look at i different. I am starting to except the great possibility that my friend may not have long to live, but what does give me comfort that him and his wife have had a very good life together they have wonderful grown up children. We have to look at the happy memories too. 

This i hope will make you all laugh, a few years ago we lost a very good family friend who every time you went she would offer you a bandy or whisky my Dad would always refuse because he was driving but we would often say thank you but can we have a small one. Well I would love to know what her large would be but you would likely struggle to get out the door. Anyway she died and I went with Dad to her funeral, who ever thought it would turn into an episode of the wacky races? She had a church service and then was having a cremation, it was at a crematorium we didn’t know so we had planned to follow th funeral car. Which sounded a great plan, however being such a wonderful kind lady she had a massive send off lots had come to pay there respect. There were rather a lot of cars, when we came to some traffic lights suddenly everyone went different ways and we are like oh who do we follow are some having to go elsewhere? So we simply went ok we will follow that car, after a while we are getting so worried that we may miss the cremation service, especially with the traffic and we got to a point of my Dad asking me to jump out and ask the driver of the car in front for directions, well to our surprise it was the Vicor who pleasantly said “don’t worry it can’t start without me”, what a relief. At the wake you could see people had started to really giggle and laugh and then it came out, who would guess it would turn out to be the wacky races. Knowing the lady who died she would of probably found it all hilarious, you end up not seeing a funeral in the same light again, a new light is shone. So I say when you go to a funeral it’s not just paying your respect it’s remembering the happy times shared.

Awww, Seaspirit and Violetsniff, 

So very sorry you have both lost good friends so recently....sending you both my love and big hugs xxxx

Love the Wacky Races Funeral GBear, made me laugh!

Are you sure the car you were following wasn't one of these..........

It would of added to the effect! Xx

seaspirit44  so sorry to hear about your friends and the fact you are feeling low, I'm sure hubby understands that you're not 100% at the moment but are still there for him. Sometimes you need to have that meltdown... you've supported me and so many others through ours.

Violetsniff  sorry you too have had the loss of friends. Over the years I have lost both parents and close friends which devastated me, now with a bc diagnosis it doesn't make me fear it actually makes me appreciate the second chance I've been given and when my arm and ears get sorted I intend to make the most of life. I've had a 'gap year' as I like to call it... I retired in the Jan full of plans and what I was going to do then diagnosed in May (anniversary on the 8th) ...plans changed and so have I but boy when I feel better I'm not wasting one minute.

Hope everyone has a lovely day.

xx