AWAKE.........

Stay Warm everyone xxx

Luv you all...off to Knit n Natter xxxx❤️

Jump, all these appts, you must be exhausted! Hope the ear clears up xxxx

Sorry for typo, predictive text arrrrrggggggrrrrhhhh!

On the train home now, from Waterloo. 

To the nosy ones (you know who you are!!) Yes it was a champions meeting. My brain is now officially fried!!

Local taxis are tricky, small town and they get booked up for morning journeys. Should have booked a week ago.

Xx

hope you get home easier then you got here toxophilite oh and my tablet is working now i hope? i found out too that it was on all day and in my bag and all, so glad its not an over heating issue, but it seems to be that the update was working in the background and the sceen remind blank it had managed to fully lose its battery so now trying to charge it. It was lovely to meet you and everyone, not sure about June as its my birthday the day before.

Today has just been  I just can't do this anymore! I'm trying so hard to be happy to appreciate the life I have but I can't, I hate it  Nothing goes right, everything I say or do goes wrong and I am fed up with appointments, scans, results, biopsies etc etc etc......but the reality is this IS my life now  

Apologies to anyone going through worse but I don't need to be told how 'lucky' I am. I know all that but it doesn't stop the sadness or the tears  Sorry xx

Sorry London if only I could reach and hug you I would. I don't fully understand how you feel and won't pretend to but you are doing it and helping others along the way. You're right it's rubbish and you need to allow the anger and sadness some days .  It is all so unfair and you don't deserve this. I don't know how to make it better but it's ok to feel this way and be honest look after yourself contact your true friends and do whatever makes you happier. Tomorrow may be a bit easier were all here for you xx

Made it home, eventually. Himself was ahead of himself, so ended up walking halfway back home from the station and met him at the local Chinese to pick up takeout. And then found 4 pages of updated discussions on this forum alone!! That makes me sad, because it means too many people are getting this bl00dy disease.

GBear glad the tablet seems happier!! Good to meet you today.

LondonLass wish I could fix it, more than you know. Please don't apologise for being real - we love you for you, regardless of how you're doing. Sending hugs.

LondonLass - sorry you’re feeling so low. Your feelings are yours and nobody can tell you how you should feel. Why should you feel ‘lucky’ or be positive all the time. I could happily punch the next person who tells me to be positive. It’s all shit and we should be allowed to be tearful and down when we need to be.