AWAKE.........

Optimistic your name alone gives an idea of your courage.  I keep thinking I will leave the two threads I follow, "awake" and "operation " because it have been told I don't need chemo and dont need radiation, I just had a bi-lateral mastectomy and I am all done, one.month yesterday.  But I went to a party three days ago, and someone whom I know a little came up to me and said, I am so sorry, I hear you are so depressed and cannot stop crying... Well no, I have been as brave as could be and hardly cried but suddenly I feel as though I COULD cry.  A lot. Really down.  Why are people so unkind?  And my rib below where the cancer had been is hurting, hurting, but the margins were clear.  I know my problems are relatively tiny but today they feel big.

Big hugs to all of you.

Erica

Why would you leave this forum ?

It helps you cope, the fact you dont need chemo or rads well I think WERE ALL MADE UP  for you chick. Its a bastard of a disease, 

Your going about your life, happy as can be, then BOOM  along comes a big shiity stick and sideswipes you , your never the same again. As for people and there comments F&c um. I try not to be negative and try VERY hard to ignor the ignorance of others. However it gets harder and harder. Cry if you must , be angry if you must, not for long tho.

Were all here to tell the story we do understand and care thats why were here.

 and  and   

Well done ladies , your all beatifull inside and out. Be proud of yourselves  and let people look after you. The above applies to you too . Infact to all of us.

I mean lets face it were not wrapped right. Me deffinatly not...!!!!! 

Love skating on the edge of bonkers keeps people away..haha. well im off out

Laters.xxxxx

Fishywishy, of course you must not leave the forum or threads. Just re read your post, " bilateral mastectomy". That's a hell of a thing to go through and you are still in early recovery with all the vulnerability and emotional turmoil that goes with it. 

That 'friend' was very insensitive and ignorant. Most inappropriate way to speak to you. Unfortunately we all have to put up with a lot of that.

Keep posting on here, concentrate on recovery and what makes you happy, and to hell with these ignorant people!

Hugs,

Seaspirit xxx

Mrsox, love skating on the edge of bonkers, that's me to a T! Xx

Fishywishy please don't think you need to leave the forum. There are people at all stages and ages all here for support. What does it matter if we do or don't have chemo etc. We're all United in this stupid diagnosis and all here for each other. I'm sure your friend didn't mean to be unkind I hated people knowing or feeling sorry for me. I hated being the one with this I think people naturally gossip but I didn't want to be their topic !  A double mastectomy is a big procedure so I'm sure the rib pain is quite normal. I had a single over a year ago and still get aches so look after yourself and keep posting xx

Hello ladies

Thank you all for your kind words. I did manage to get a good nights sleep last night due to the anasthetic and painkillers.

I have managed to get up and about today as I want to be able to take the white stockings off.

Am open to offers for the stockings and for the largest pair of paper pants I have ever seen.

Hope everyone sleeps well 

Love

Sue xxxxx

That's good news long may it continue!!

Skating on the edge of bonkers..................... hmmmm...................... I think I went to the middle where the thin ice is and fell through....................

Well, I read all the reports from the audit yesterday, and we actually came out ok. 3 non-conformances only, and 90% done. The major one was the stuff the boss was supposed to do and didn't. We had a chat about it, and he said he felt the auditor thought he wasn't interested. I looked him in the eye and told him it was true. He was a bit taken aback, but admitted it.

I've told him I will do the hard work putting the stuff together, but he needs to buy into the risk analysis stuff and it is his business, so he needs to document contingency plans etc. I said that I can get it all ticking over nicely by the end of the year if he will reserve judgement until then. He was thinking of going forward with no accreditation, and was a bit shocked when I told him that would mean losing 90% of the customers because their insurance companies wouldn't like it. I believe in this stuff, and genuinely feel he will see the benefits on the bottom line if he buys in and leads the way.

So hopefully some progress made. The big stumbling block is going to be getting the lads on board. To the youngsters it's just a job with a paycheck, they don't really care about the work and doing it right. It's likely to end up with the big stick coming out - if the paycheck is at risk maybe they will think about what they are doing.

So, go me.

LondonLass you've made it to your weekend!! How's the new bed?

xx

, firstly may I agree with the other ladies in saying you are more than welcome on this thread and any other thread you may choose to be on. You have had Cancer and that's your ticket to any thread you like!

I think it's something we are all guilty of, not thinking we are as badly off as someone else so we don't deserve the help, advice or support. Sometimes we need to remember that we are all on our own individual journey. However long or short the journey is its 'our' journey. 

None of us asked for Cancer to come in and stamp all over our lives! None of us chose for this to happen. None of us caused this. None of us deserved this! None of us could of stopped this!

Cancer messes with our bodies and minds. It's a cruel, cruel disease. Whatever we go through, surgery, chemo, rads or more! It leaves it's scars, scars we have to live with for the rest of our lives! Does anybody get off lightly? I don't think so! Do our families get off Scot free? I don't think so! 

So Fishywishy and anybody else reading this. YOUR journey with Cancer is just that YOUR journey. Feel how you need to feel, don't compare your journey with others. Just concentrate on what you need to do to get through this. Because at the end of the day the only thing we have in common is we were diagnosed and we are trying to survive! That's it!!

Love to all. Remember to make the most of every day. Enjoy every minute. Make memories. Don't put off till tomorrow what you can do today. Live in the moment. Sal xx

Well said LondonLass !!

xx

Hahaha Sue G, not exactly glamorous wear in hospital! Xx