AWAKE.........

Gosh Northerner, that really made me cry.

I feel ugly. I don't feel loved. 

I am wondering if I am really as strong as I thought I was.

I have also just been on a zoom cancer support group meeting where everyone else has settled on their hormone treatment and I feel the odd one out as I still suffer from tge side effects!

It has been a bad day at work where I have just found out they have employed someone for the role I was supposedly being considered for and made her my senior!! 

Aww Mag123  I love you. You've become a dear friend and despite me moving away and we've not managed to meet up in person as much, I'm here if you need anything. 

Work sounds horrible at the moment. Remember just do the day job and nothing else as they aren't appreciating you at all. Can you grumble to HR? Sending hugs xx

• Just tried to buy a bra. It gave the discount but kept going through the  registering my address details repeatedly and wouldn't process the order.

Thank you so much Tired Minion. I love you too and miss you.

Aww! @Mags123 that’s a shame perhaps try later site may be busy as they had just posted the discount . I was able to order but already have an account . It’s usually a very efficient site .

Sorry you’re feeling out on a limb at the moment at work as was said before by Tired minion just do your day job and ignore everything else.  Just remember you are protected under law because of your diagnosis .

The post was meant as a encouragement sorry it made you cry  but glad it made you put your feelings out there .I’m no expert but you sound as if things are getting a bit much . If you must be at work then make sure to rest up when at home .

Ive got scanxiety at the moment received a nhs letter inviting me for targeted lung health assessment, they working with GP practices in area to test patients in age bracket 55 to 74 who smoke or used to .

So after phone triage I’m getting check and CT scan in morning …I know it’s a good thing but at the same time .

Take care of yourself and go talk to GP if you still feel down 

Ah dear Northerner, I know it was only meant as a positive post. I am just having a day feeling really sorry for myself. 

I shall be thinkingbof you tomorrow. Remember, it is just routine and it will be good to have had the tests done xx

Yes I know it’s a good thing being done as a preventive or catch early .just like yourself a bad week . A friend I made in ward after we both had MX in 2019 a young mum with 4 children ,sadly passed away on Thursday evening aged just 36 
She was diagnosed with a secondary liver mass in Nov. Just so sad for her young children but at least she at peace now 

Goodness, Mag123  I think you’re not being that well treated at work, and think you need to take those rest times as needed! 

you ARE beautiful, whether you think it or not. Hopefully you’ll begin to believe it a bit sometime soon. My counsellor years back handed me a mirror, and asked me what I saw. He then said I needed to get to know, like and love who I saw there. I’ve worked at that, and the technique has stood me in good stead over the last dozen years or so. 

Big hugs xxx

Will be thinking of you tomorrow Northerner  and hoping that scan goes fine with no problems found. I know it’s always worrying though. 

Hugs xxx