AWAKE.........

Hi Sue, apologies I couldn't work out how to enlarge the picture to post it on here! But it gave me a giggle! Hope you had a lovely Christmas! Xxx

Thankyou so much sal. I really appreciate that. You are so supportive it really does mean the world to me. Im here for you too. Xxx

Apologies ladies I missed a couple of the replies!

Lynn, you are very welcome. You are a very Special Friend to me xx

Karen, haven't seen you on for a bit so hope that means you have been busy having a Great time. I believe you said you were back on call today! I hope the day is super quiet for you! Xx

Gay, I hope you have now settled in your new home and that you start to feel more relaxed. This is going to be a new start and hopefully the beginning of a great new year for you xx

Cannon, good to hear from you. Always nice to know we are entertaining someone! my Christmas was very nice but exhausting! I still have this cold and can't shift it!! But hopefully can relax over the next few days as I have nothing planned, except appts today and tomorrow! Xx

Fran, I hope things will become clearer once you have had your appointment tomorrow (I think) Lucky Pants is happy to join you for it, if you would like him too? Xx

Jo, I think you also have an appt today? But I can't think what it was for. So apologies for not putting you on the Lucky Pants post, but obviously he is here for you, as always xx

Optimistic, I hope you have had a lovely Christmas with your family. Things seem to be settling down for you thankfully. I have read some of the replies you have given to some newbies, you should feel very proud at yourself and how far you have come! Xx

To everyone else who continued to keep this thread running, by posting funny pics or supportive messages or just by saying hello, THANKYOU! 

Individually we are stronger than we give ourselves credit for, but together we are unstoppable! Time for a..........

I hope everyone has as good a day as they can! We've all nearly made it through another year! Well done people! Keep putting one foot in front of the other! That's all we can do! Xxxxx

Will be pleased to have lucky pants with me tomorrow as know he will be lucky for me . !massive group hug to all and stay warm its brrrrr outside xxxxFran

Hi everyone. Just been chillin'.Managed some decent sleep assisted by Irish coffee.....

Santa brought...... drum roll......... a foot spa!!! Best present ever!!

Good luck to everyone with appointments today - poor Lucky Pants is going to need a cocoa and his bed when he gets home!!

Shellian, I'm sorry to hear you're having a hard time with hubby. I can't offer any words, but I can do hugs.

Yes, back on call this morning. Phone started going before I even got then message to say it was changed over to me. I have to go out after lunch - customer said it was fine to leave it a bit for the snow to melt.

Yup, woke up to 3 inches of snow.

Hi London Lass thank you for your kind words. I'm doing ok still have moments or hours last night broke down when sat with hubby watching tv   he said he doesn't know what to say when I get like this he's been so good I've put them all through so much with this. Basically I just have to get on with it I can sit and cry and waste time or just push on. But having said that the awful Fear just takes over I say this to him I don't want this either. But I'm getting there a lot of this is down to this wonderful forum yourself and others on here Toxophilite Mrsox Ronstar and others answering my desperate messages ! X. So thank you again yes I'm trying to answer some messages I hate seeing others as devastated as I was by this rubbish disease as Mrsox may say xxx

Finally back home with my feet up!

Oncology appointment was the usual, useless appointment! He's pushing me to have the Denosumab but I just can't do it. He's now come up with another bone strengthening drug that is less likely to cause Jaw issues, so I am going to research this drug and then make a decision. He said I couldn't do anything until I see the hospital dentist about the lump on my gum! 

I did ask if this area was covered by the CT scan and he said NO! It's just the brain! So that's a bit of a pain! But I suppose I should of expected it really!

Saw the hospice nurse and had a good chat (okay cry) she thinks I should give the bone strengthener a try as then I might be able to stop some of the other pain meds?! I just don't know! I think I'm just so scared about this bloody jaw issue, they say it is rare!! But with my luck I will be that 1 in 100 who gets it :-( 

Anyway I have time to talk myself into it!

Hope everyone else's appointments went okay xxxxxxx

Hi everyone. Hope you’ve all had a good Christmas.

 Not been on for a few weeks.. I had a mri scan last week and my cancer has gone from 17mm to 12mm after 4 chemo sessions. Will find out next week what the next step will be either more chemo or a lumpectomy. My consultant is pushing for the op as chemo isn’t suiting me. Just depends on what the surgeons say.. 

 Been so drained all I’m doing is sleeping..

Hi All, I had my appt with surgeon today and my surgery is on the 15th, not the 22nd, but they won't do the dbl mx! They discused it in the weekly meet and decided that they couldn't do both at the same time as I don't recover well! We are testing the tissue to see if there are any mutations and if there are, it will be done in 12-18 months, but not before. They are doing a full Ax clearance with all the fatty tissue, (yay). They have told me to prepare for the results of the node involvement. Not sure what they mean by that and didn't feel I'd gain anything by asking, but I got the impression that they expect it to be bad! They also said that the level of response may change from complete to good when they get in there. I knew this, but Declan was not impressed. I just want the surgery to hurry up now! Bloods checked today, results tomorrow. 

Sal, sorry your Onc appt was not good. I hope they sort out your pain as you need some fun! Mrsox and any others that had appts today, how did it go? Hopefully well. Good luck to those of you with appts tomorrow too. Lucky Pants will be very busy in the next few weeks!

Fuuuuuu! I think a few huge hugs all round are the order or the day.....when said I just wanted warming up??? That's just beneficial side effect!!

 Hang on I will be back...