AWAKE.........

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Good morning......I am up if anyone out there is hoping for company. 

It's  still dark. It always surprises me how quickly the mornings start to draw in once July has passed. I can see a lot of stars so I hope that heralds a nice day.

I am hoping to garden again. Yesterday I cut back all the lillies and planted the bulbs in pots into gaps in the flower beds. Today there is a lot of tidying up........several plants wilted during the draught and although they are alive, need a haircut!

I will watch the news and check back afterwards.

Hopefully you're all still sleeping.....

Love Karen

Morning Fruit Loops, good luck to anyone with appointments and treatment today.

Sal, (LondonLass), we will all be with you today and hope you finally get some answers and help. Make sure you have a big list of everything and maybe someone will finally listen to you, and of course the biggest hot flush you can muster, and then say well how would you like that all the time. 

This is odd, I've been on line on and off since 6.30 but only just got your post!

I'm on a rest day after 24 hours of cleaning our motorhome and washing and ironing after holiday in Germany.

I've got to go to docs today to get a letrozole prescription. I got one month from hospital, went to GO and after first finding out they didn't know I'd got BC, they gave me just one months supply. I'm hoping that is so they keep an eye on side effects. Otherwise it's going to be silly.

It's damp here so no garden for me. I'm actually hoping to catch up on Poldark and Beecham house. 

I hope you managed to get back to sleep.

Love the spell checker. It swapped letrozole for metronome. We should make it an honorary fruition.

Lovely Sal (LondonLass)

I'm SO sorry that my post yesterday upset you - I certainly didn't mean to ignore the issue of being childless - that was obviously the wrong thing to do when you'd put your heart and soul into your previous post. 

PLEASE don't stop posting - we're here for you whatever you need to say on whatever topic. For me, Lacomtekp has summed it up well - better than I probably could. Childlessness is not an issue I've come up against before, and I honestly don't know what to say that might be helpful. I can't give any advice or help from personal experience or that of friends, and sometimes saying nothing seems better than saying the wrong thing and triggering even worse thoughts and feelings. 

I've often seen it on threads here that people who have no experience of cancer say things that really aren't helpful/useful to those of us who have, and that the people on the receiving wish that they had said nothing rather than causing upset. I think that for me, the childlessness issue is very much the same. However, I should have acknowledged your post at least rather than ignoring the issue.

had a good idea about joining a forum specifically dedicated to childless women as posters on there may have advice and ability to empathise with your situation much more than many of us here might be able to. Please don't think that you can't post here as well though - you are the foundation of this thread and we love you!!!  

Good luck today - I hope that you get some of the answers that you are looking for...

More hugs to you! 

Just a quick post to say that I hope LP gives you the nudge if you don’t say what’s bugging you in your appointment today, and holds your hand too, LondonLass! 

Hope all goes better than you fear, please please let us know how you are doing, we all want to hear!

hugs xxx

Thinking of you today LondonLass

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Dear LondonLass I hope you are ok I'm sorry you are suffering  i  understand a little bit having had four miscarriages and a very traumatic labour during my pregnancies. However I am now blessed with my family but at the time it was all consuming. i know this isn't the same and I didn't have my diagnosis to cope with as well  You do mention grief though and it being similar to some of us grieving our old life  I can relate to that as I still do this daily  I also know my grief was like a physical ache it was horrendous and I've found no easy answer except time and working through those awful grief stages which of course has no timetable. It's such a lonely situation for you I'm sure . I follow a few ladies on Instagram younger than me in similar situation to yourself and there are  Facebook groups accordingly if it may help. Sending a massive hug your way and hope expressing your feelings helps a bit xx

Well that was a complete waste of time. Although they did listen and apologise for not being able to help! My oncologist wasn't even there it was his trainee! She was lovely and listened and did the head tilt, apologised that she didn't have a magic pill and then said don't take Fluoxetine as theres no evidence that it helps! Instead have a 6 wk break from Venlafaxine and then restart it!! So that's that!! xx

Thanks for all of your support. Looks like dealing with menopausal symptoms is my problem for at least the next 6wks! But what's another 6wks when this has been going on for years!! Xx

Oh LondonLass, that’s just PANTS! 

Hugs xxx