AWAKE.........

You are so brave ,Sal, to say how you feel , as we all feel we have to be upbeat to spare others how we really feel . I hope the feedback you got helped in a tiny way.....we need to emote honest . My daughter husband and children have gone back to Australia and I am coming to terms with never seeing them Again.It feels weird . Best wishes to all fruit loops 

Oh what a bittersweet feeling I really hope you do xxx

that must of been very hard for all of you. I hope that they have left you with some beautiful memories. Memories that will stay with you and them forever! Sometimes we question whether the time together was worth the hurt you feel when people leave? But I for one think it is. You allow yourself time to feel, however you need to feel. If u need to talk you know we are here to listen! Now I can't make things better all I can do is offer.......

I hope you are okay hun! Xxxxx

I am having a mixed day. I decided it was time to be fully honest with my Counsellor. I don't see her for a few weeks, so decided I would send her a copy of the message I put on here yesterday! I wasn't sure if it was the right or wrong thing to do, especially via email. However she replied and thanked me for sharing it with her. She said it would give us a place to start next time I see her.....if i still wanted/needed too. She emphasised that there would be no pressure!

However going on the fact i just feel so emotional right now i truly think now is the time to work through all this. It's very scary and I know it won't be easy.. but maybe just maybe this will be the first step towards me finding my REAL smile again.......if i still have one!!!!!

Oh and I had an interesting email from the top Specialist Nurse who over see's all the other nurses! It appears they have finally got the funding for a secondary breast care nurse!!! Now it's just fingers crossed shes a decent one! By that I mean someone who listens, cares and isn't too scared to touch your hand! 

Have a good evening all xxxx

Oh Puzzler,

a humungous hug for you too, I soooooooo hope you’re wrong about that statement, and I’m sure every person would too. 

Another hug xxx

Hi LondonLass,

I'm so glad you shared that with your counsellor, and also pleased there’s another nurse funded, and you made me grin when you said hope she’s not afraid to touch a hand! I sometimes wonder if people still think cancer is catching?!?!? 

I’m also very glad you’ve opened up on here, the emotional baggage one has to deal with through illness, and indeed, life is not one that we English folk readily admit to, and emotions like yours run so deep. Gold star for being so open and honest....

Another big hug, lovely lady xxx

I hope you slept after telling us how you really feel.  Lots of love xxxx

Oh  big  hugs xxx

LondonLass Sal, and

xx

Hi all, hope you all slept well? Good Luck to any of you who have appointments today. I am off for another acupuncture Session! I’m not sure if it’s working, but at least I am giving it a go. 

After my acupuncture I am meeting a lovely lady for coffee and a chat! I can be pretty open with her as she is one of us and ‘gets it’, well to a certain degree! 

Hope you all have a lovely day. May you all stay cool and sweat free!! Love you My Fruit Loops. Take Care. Sal xxxxxx