AWAKE.........

Thank You Ladies for all the wise words and support. I was already feeling low yesterday and it was just not what I needed to hear first thing on Monday morning! Just to give you the full details. The reason for the question is because, my boss is pregnant with baby number 2! It's very early on, but they are thinking ahead. So hopefully nothing is going to change in the immediate future! I hope! 

I suppose when I sat down and thought about it I then started thinking, could I even cope with a 3 year old and newborn?! Something I have NEVER questioned before. I wouldn't of batted an eyelid at any number of children......well those days are long gone! But then I am getting older so maybe those days would be gone now anyway?! Who knows!!

i had already thought about suggesting a nanny share so they would always have back up. Although that would only work if the nanny doing 2 days didn't have other commitments! But definitely worth suggesting! 

I am just so tired and fed up but I NEED to work! If I wasn't working here I would have to work somewhere. I can't afford not to work! I'm 43 and am possibly going to live a long time with this disease! Which right now doesn't fill me with excitement, sorry I know how awful that sounds! I am trying to find the bright side, but it's hard! 

Anyway today is a new day and I am going to try not to think about it. I'm just going to get on with surviving the day!!

I hope everyone else is doing okay. Oh and before I forget..........

Aunty Jenny , someone is on their way.........

Good Luck with your appointment Hun and hope LP behaves! Xxxxxx

Morning all, hope you all managed some sleep, 

thanks LondonLass, for sending LP treats at the ready, 

I am off today to see my oncologist, to see if bloods are ok to start my next lot of chemo, then have my injections. Just hope things are still stable, always worry that something will show up, but what will be will be.

Good luck to anyone else with treatment or appointments.

Have the best day you can everyone xx

Having endless computer hassle , no idea if this posts ( or posts twice ?)

Good luck for today Grannylara..

Sal …..just a thought …..by the time the baby is born , and she takes some mat leave ( ? ) will the current toddler be in some form of preschool part of some days ?? And by the time the new baby is a toddler will the current child be at school ? I know this is still a LOT of work...….but they obviously value you . Perhaps they would agree to some  day care to help keep you ?  Whatever ….you must do what is best for your health , physical and MENTAL …….good luck x

Here's one I made earlier...

I love the pussy cat hats!!

i made this for my Choir Master....he has been sooooooo patient with us motley crew and now he says (before Caril Services this weeken)”Excellent”....it has been SUCH A STRUGGLE.....Christmas has got so expensive and he earns about a trillion pounds more than me,so I have made him a present ,hope he uses it at work ,to show the others he is a fab Choirmaster.(he is a Barrister)xx

HI London Lass

Just read your post and I know just how you're feeling.  We are often taken for granted and just because we don't look ill (being so good at hiding our feelings) everyone thinks we're ok and back to normal.  I often say if I had a big plaster cast on my leg people would realize that there was something the matter.

What I've done for the past couple of years is to put myself First and I now do say no.  Putting "me first" is so hard to do but at times we must do it.  I had chemo in 2012 and I still get very tired.  I care for my husband and I often feel that the agencies involved in his care just think I'm just here to look after him.  I now regularly remind that that I now have to put myself first. I look after him but when I feel their requests are unreasonable I tell them so. Unless someone has had cancer with all its associated treatments they have no idea how it affects our lives.

So say no to extra work, and tell them why.  They are lucky you do as much as you do, but remember you are important and unless you look after yourself you won't be able to do what you do

Big hug x

Finally back from oncologist, all still stable, and bloods ok to start chemo.

LP was very good while we were with oncologist eating his treats, but disappeared when I had my injections, as it was lunchtime he found the food trolley and had a whale of a time. He is now on his way back to you Sal, LondonLass, thanks for sending him. Xx

Yay hooray for good results and stableness

Beautiful pressies Violetsniff and yes probably lots of nurses work part-time when getting more mature as its so physically demanding xxx

Hi Jenny,

. Great news about Bloods

Love Judith xx

Grrr having problems inserting pictures again...

*** comedy mammogram pic***

2 year follow up mammo on Friday. Is LP free??? He needs to hold my hand , mind you look on the bright side, at least I only have one boob to do. 

Please don't let this be a repeat of last year when I was stood there topless;

'oh, I think I know you' - no, I don't think so

'I did your mammogram last year' - no. last year the lady was Chinese

'Are you a teacher?' - erm, yes.....

'At ..... Comprehensive School' - erm yes....

' You taught my son and daughter' .... oh!!!! You recognised my face

Lets have a conversation about how they are doing whilst I stand there with my t*t out !!!!

Gotta laugh,

Cwtches,

Gay xxx