AWAKE.........

Yes that’s the same with Abemaciclib, but I take a tablet twice a day constantly rather than having a week off. 

Night night Fruit Loops, sleep well and stay safe, plenty of sleepy fairy dust for all who wish 

hugs xxx

It has felt humid today…..

night night Fruit Loops, sleep well and stay safe, plenty of sleepy fairy dust for all who wish 

hugs xxx

Not sure whether to say good evening or good morning! I've discovered I can't have a reconstruction even if I wanted one because my BIN is too high. Needless to say I comforted myself with a bag of isps. This means the future looks flat provided they do the bilateral mastectomy which seems to me to be the only sensible option.

I've started writing down the questions I have , I couldn't think of any on Saturday, I can't keep ringing the BC nurse every time one pops into my head. The main one has to be how did it not appear on the mammogram in October or was it missed?

On the plus side we are picking up a new motor home today. Sorting that will keep both of us busy. The waiting as always is the worst. Up until now I've had my grand daughters but they go on holiday tomorrow. When they get back the surgery might be over, at least I can hope so.

Now I need some sleep dust, but I will try my lavender oil and my meditation tape. An advantage of separate rooms , I don't disturb hubby. Although a cuddle might have worked either

1. Hi silverberg. I have missed quite a lot of previous conversations, so was just wondering what type of BC you were diagnosed with and when and what stage are you at now?
2. I was diagnosed with Tnbc last March and without any symptoms, i ended up with 8 months of chemotherapy and immunotherapy, with both breasts having lympectomy surgery, 3 weeks of radiotherapy and then another  5 sessions of continual  immunotherapy which I have just finished. I'm on Ibandronic acid tablets daily for 3 years now. I was classed as a stage 2, grade 2 when first diagnosed, it was the biggest shock to ever hit me.
3. I wish you well and all the best in your treatment.
4. Allison 

Hello Basket?

This is my third lot of BC! The first two were hormone dependent and as they said" recurance"  on my GO letter I'm assuming it's the same again. I went last Saturday and had mammogram, ultrasound and biopsy. I thinkhey took pity on me and told me then it had come back. First couple of times , once in each breast I had lumpectomy ,followed by radiotherapy. This time it has to be a mastectomy but I've put forwarI want bilateral mastectomy. I do not want to go through this again! The first time telling my Mum was bad enough. Telling her this time, she's 93, was horrific. The. Only thing that's been better ts time is my son isn't deployed in Afghanistan. So I'm at the waiting stage, always the hardest when I sort of know things are not great but I don't know what treatment in getting. Once the ride sets off things are better.

Please excuse all the random faces this seems to have a mind of its own this morning.

Have a good day

Bless you Silverberg , who knows? I’m still here after a recurrence too, last year, mine was hormone-led too, they thought I was low risk so first time I just had an mx (with implant as I really didn’t want to be flat) and hormone busting meds for 5 years; they swapped from Letrozole to tamoxifen after 3 years, thinking it would be kinder for my bones, the Onco now thinks the tamoxifen let me down. 

Anyway, I’m really tired tonight, so night night Fruit Loops, sleep well and stay safe, plenty of sleepy fairy dust for all who wish 

hugs xxx

Night night Fruit Loops, sleep well and stay safe, plenty of sleepy fairy dust for all who wish 

hugs xxx

I have absolutely no idea why I am awake at this time but I am.....and wide awake too. I've already cleaned the downstairs shower room and made tea and it isn't 05.00 yet.....

So, now I am sitting back in bed with my book and perhaps I will get back to sleep but knowing me, I doubt it. 

I was surprised to see the solar garden lights were still on. The garden looked like fairyland....7 hours of lighting from a sunny/ cloudy day seems good for the price.

My feet are less sore today thank goodness. The podologue decided to scrap off a layer of dead skin that the neuropathy had left puffy. It was a good idea because I knew it wasn't right....like walking on a bubble....but despite all her lovely creams she used afterwards they have been sore for the last 36 hours. Trivial I know in terms of those of you with returning cancers but still something caused by the chemo I didn't have before.

Well, I don't suppose anyone else is daft enough to be awake at this hour so I'll attempt the book/ sleep approach.

I'll let you know the result!

I'm awake. Can't think why.Hubby awake too I can hear him moving around.I'm looking forward to getting dressed up for the beer festival in the village. I might not feel like it much over the next few weeks. The waiting is so hard. During the day isn't so bad, managing to keep busy. The nights are the worst. Shame my granddaughter can't be here. I have to be still so I don't wake her and I go back to sleep more quickly. 

However awake I was I cannot imagine cleaning in the night. Id kill for a cup of coffee though.

So I never did get back to sleep but went for my walk instead....I had time to double the length. The sunflowers are over for this year.....

They look rather sad but it's going to be a beautiful day.

Misty to start but lovely views once I got uphill above the tall flowers!