AWAKE.........

Busy and tiring day and no time for a nap….. hope you’re all doing ok? 

night night Fruit Loops, sleep well and stay safe, plenty of sleepy fairy dust for all who wish 

hugs xxx

I'm a bit nervous today.  My oncologist secretary phoned me yesterday and said he wanted to see me today.  I am only due to see him 24 September so I am really scared.

Lee x

Sometimes they get cancellations, and then try and fill clinics, so hopefully it won’t be too much to worry about?

hugs xxx

Hi you were right Moomy thank you.  Now I can breathe again.

Lee x

It seems you were right moomy  - if only they could say this when making the phone call.  The anxiety waiting on a normal appointment is bad enough, then to get asked to come in the next day would totally trigger all kinds of thoughts.

..... Thankfully Leelaloo you can now relax a little and at least you don't have the stress and anxiety of waiting until the end of September.

Sending love and hugs to all the Fruit Loops xxxx 

I've been for ultrasound today. They thought they saw something on the CT scan. Ultrasound showed nothing. Extra mammograms showed nothing so I came home. Only to be phoned later. Could I go back soone else wants to look for themselves. So I'm back at Pinders in the morning. Glad I've retired, this would cause chaos at school. Instead I've had to cancel a facial and reorganize my nail appointment.

Let's hope the ladies were right.

Sleep well folks.

Owww Silverberg  so now you have the anxiety - I'd say the way to look at it is they are been extra careful. My head thinks I remember hearing that ultrasounds 'see' more, they look deeper.  Thankfully, it's good they want you back tomorrow - its not stressing you out for days or even weeks xx

Mind you cancelling a facial thats not nice ..... the way my shoulders feel I'd love a back massage - not had these sort of luxuries for many a year, I feel more like Howard Hughs .... without the money

I hope tomorrow goes well for you xx

Glad all wasn’t too dreadful Leelaloo  and that I was right, at least you now don’t have that agony of waiting! 

Night night Fruit Loops, sleep well and stay safe, plenty of sleepy fairy dust for all who wish 

hugs xxx

Heck! Silverberg that’s so annoying, hope they still find nothing! 
hugs xxx

Well today has been a bit of a shocker.

I went back to see the consultant as requested. OH took me, which was just as well. 

He did ultrasound on a completely different place to yesterday. Higher more like my neck of shoulder. He found the lump he identified in CT scan and MR I scan. He knew where he was looking. He explained he thought it could be a secondary from the other one they found. It's in the opposite side. However it is very close to a main artery. He made great pains to explain how risky a biopsy  could be but they really needed to do it to decide on treatment. So the possibility that this could move me from stage 1 up to Stage 4 hit me like a hammer blow. I knew I had to have it done but felt I should explain to OH that I may end up in surgery. ( I had unpacked my surgery bag into a box so I told him where it was and reminded him to add a towel and a couple of pairs of knicker). He agreed with me though that it had to be done.

It was uncomfortable rather than painful but it was done and we were coming home by 10.00. 

I had my nails done then went to " spoons" for lunch. There are times when it is easier to talk in a busy place , everyone stays calm. I do wonder though what news will put me off my food. I inhaled my wings and chips.

He's told my son and daughter and I'll talk to them soon. 

Had anyone else been through this? They've told me there is nothing in any organs so I think it's called a secondary reoccurance!