Hi ladies, well I didn't think I would be here again. I posted something last year after having swelling in my right armpit, and I was sent for a scan where the radiographer typed the report up stating I had an abnormal looking lymph node. After an agonising 2 week wait I went to the breast clinic where I was examined by the consultant, who didn't find anything suspicious so rechecked my scan and advised me that there was nothing wrong and it was a typing error, no apology for the distress caused over an agonising wait. I ended up having CBT after because it distressed me so much and I have health anxiety.Â
Here I am 16 months later and have a 2 week wait appointment on Thursday. I'm so worked up by it, mainly because of last years error. I started getting pain in my left breast about 3/4 weeks ago. Sore under my nipple, a white spot on my nipple where if squeezed a thick creamy substance comes out, shooting pains in my nipple and my breast feels so much heavier than my right. I have a burning pain going across the top of my breast and ended up in a&e on Saturday night due to the pain, which they put down to muscoskeletal pain, but because I have cardiomyopathy I had to be kept in. My chest x ray and bloods were all clear. I'm so anxious, and have convinced myself that it's going to be bad news. I don't really know what I want people to say. I have sciatica and been achy of late so naturally my mind is racing that I have it and it's spread to my bones. Which sounds rediculous I know. My GP put generalised breast pain on the referral and that he didn't think it was cancer but I can't get the worst out of my head.Â
Someone please tell me to snap out of it! Somehow if I prepare myself for the worst I think it will be easier to  deal with but I think I'm just kidding myself.Â
I'm in awe of you amazing people coping with all this, just the thought of possibly being in your shoes terriers me :-( j
