Bowel cancer CARERS, FAMILY & FRIENDS chat

Thanks Maggie! 

I just feel so `detached` from everything just now just feel numb. Yes I am still feeling all the fallout from last year and now just hope it's not rearing its head again. Don't know if I could go through it all again. Thanks Maggie. 

Take Care.

Hi Vicky Simon has had his chemo today so far so good early days I know .Vicky I am soo sorry to read this think you have been running from the day you loss jay and it's now catching you up.Just give in to your emotions and if you feel like locking the door and closing the curtains one day that's fine as well. Scarlet please ring and get advice even if it is just reassurance love to you all x

Thank you Scarlett. 

I really do hope so. It's not like me to feel like this it's just as though its something that has crept up on me and hit me like a ton of bricks. I've been convincing myself everything is fine but its obviously not been and everything has just obviously come to a head plus my sister is going for a CT scan next week so that is at the back of mind too. 

Vicky just take it easy and have a wee drink. You have been marvellous throughout all this and so strong xxxx

Fingers crossed Jkee for Simon. I am thinking of you and what you too have been through. Somehow we never relax just waiting for the next thing to happen. You too take care of yourself and relax if you can. love and hugs to all who are going through this awful disease xxxx

Oh that's good Jkee that they got Simon started on chemo. Hope he's not had any adverse effects so far. I'm a little bit better today. Had a really good `bubble` to myself last night and I think now this may be the grief starting to surface now. True what they say you do actually feel better once you get it all out. Thinking of you and Simon hope he can carry on with this treatment. Take Care.

Vicky xx

Thanks Maggie!

As I said to Jkee had a really good `bubble` to myself last night and felt so much better after it. Think this what I have been needing and hopefully it's the delayed grief beginning to surface so I can get it all out. I'll have `wee drink` at the weekend. Hoping to have it tomorrow night but think I'll need a clear head because think I have Myla on Saturday again. So Saturday night maybe a big bottle of something and big long straw. Take Care. 

Vicky xx

You take care PattyK . You have not had time to draw breath between your husbands illness and then your sisters. I feel for you and understand and I feel it too . Some days it just catches up .

Hope things pick up for you ,

Court 

Thank You Court!

Happened again last night just burst into tears for no reason. I'm hoping it's the pent up delayed grief I've been experiencing beginning to surface and at last I can get it all out and will feel better.  Convincing myself that I have been fine over the last year but as you say this is it probably catching up now. Just feel I want to hide away for now. Just went out for a run in the car today just to get out for an hour. Hoping it will all pass soon. Thank You for you reply. Hope your mum is keeping well and still fighting on. 

Vicky x

It will do you good Vicky as you have not been able to grieve properly. Sending uyou a big hug xxxx