Hello
I am 47. I am a single parent (the only useful parent) of a 9 year old.
I noticed blood in my stool around 2 months ago. Reported it straight away - FIT test 379 ug. Doc said wair two weeks repeat test, next one came back 400ug. Sent for colonscopy. Told 'likely have cancer'.
Huge 60mm lesion in sigmoid colon flat with depression (since read giant lesion, more likely to be aggressive because flat and more likely to be invasive because depressed). Absolutely terrified I will be told stage 4 (3 at best).
I had no clear early symptoms and screening is not offered under 50 :( so no chance or opportunity to find it early and give me a dogs chance.
I am so scared. I know I need to get results but know once the doctor speaks my life could be officially cut short. And once words said it will become reality.
It terrifies what will happen for my dependant 9 year old if I dont make it.... doesnt bear thinking about. If told months or a year it would be hanging over us. I know pressure to be positive and 'strong'. But I feel neither just now.
Take this cup from me.
I read odds of it being caught early when irs 60mm, flat and depressed is very unlikely so hard to stay hopeful. I just think is death sentence. Get through today and hear my fate in morning. Hell.
Is thers any hope?
Good morning
Agree total hell,
I I am waiting for the results of my FIT test but as I am 70 with 4 "red flag" symptoms have no doubt will be positive. I Have brought up my grandson who is now 21 and the thought of him having no one to turn to is breaking me. But there are positive stories on this group and it would seem once you know for sure and are given a plan it focuses the mind..
Wishing you good news tomorrow
Hope today goes ok Moralsupport1 Take a pen and paper to jot things down and any questions you have and please let us know how you get on? x
It is cancer and has spread to my liver 4 lesions. Now to have MRI to see if operable. If it is, cure is still possible and surgery to remove primary site - sigmoid colon and these liver lesions. If is decided not operable. If its not- chemo to extend the time I have. But doesnt sound like a nice time either way.
MRI on thursday. Four lesions. Will let me know.
All i can think about is my children. My adult child and my dependant child. And how this nightmare will effect them.
Take this cup from me. I do not want to put them through it.
and thanks for updating us. I’m sorry it’s not the news you were hoping for and hopefully the MRI will give you a clearer picture of what lies ahead. There is still treatment for liver mets and there are people on here you’ve had a lot of success. Although the link below is a couple of years old it might still be helpful?
There will be be some tough times ahead but try and focus on getting as fit and healthy as you can for your treatment and lean on us here or your local Maggies centre when you need support x
Morning Moralsupport1
So sorry it wasn't better news.
I can imagine the pain you are going through for your children,especially your 9 year old.
hopefully on or soon after Thursday they can give you a plan for going forward
Thank you. I am not sure which is harder actually. The diagnosis or the thought of the effext on the people I love if dont find a way out of it. Its very hard emotionally isnt it. Very frightening
Thank you for kind reply. Helps to know not alone x
Hi so sorry you are on this site but there is hope, I was diagnosed with rectal,liver and lungs cancer in October 2025, I was told inoperable and palliative care only to try and hold tumours where they were but didn't hold out much hope of doing that. I started chemo on 7th November 2025 every 2 weeks had 1st scan February 2026 and all tumours had reduced some only by 1 or 2mm others more the ones in liver by a third
Carried on with next set of 6 cycles. Had 2nd scan in may 2026 and all tumours apart from one in lungs have reduced again carried on with next set of 6 cycles had 3rd scan on 30th July 2026 waiting on results. today started next set of 6 cycles. So far the only side effects I have had is hair thinning really badly but can deal with this and fatigue for a couple of days.Please stay positive, when treatment starts it's not as bad as you think it is going to be, hopefully when you see oncologist you will have a positive outcome, will be thinking about you
Thank you - is such a shock to be the person sat in the chair and told. No symptoms. Someone you have never met telling you whats happening in your body. Its surreal.
I am so glad for you that the medication is working. It does sound tough and like it becomes part of life.
Its so senseless- how one rogue cell can cause such destruction and pain. When its own existence is so futile and pointless.
It does give me hope. It must have been such a shock to be told this initially.
I hope it reduces to nothing for you.
Can I ask, do you mostly live as normal when on medication - can you do what you used to do before treatment? Has it changed your way of life? Any top tips?
Its random isnt it - just random.
Thank you
Hi it was a shock to be told what I had and where it was, as I had no symptoms and was having a scan for something else when it was found. I can do everything I did before treatment with no problems, I just do a little slower on the days after treatment as can be fatigued a little for 2 to 3 days, then back to normal. I feel very lucky that I don't have any side effects apart from the hair thinning I also have the DPD gene which can cause a problem but hasn't so far. Just keep positive (I know this is hard to do) when faced with the diagnosis at first as your mind goes all over the place. I try and eat very healthy but do eat what I crave at times of treatment so far I haven't lost weight I have actually gained weight. It is so hard to take everything in at first as there is so much to process. You can do this and once you have your treatment plan it becomes easier as you know what is happening and can organise your life around this. I found eating smaller meals and snack more often was better for me than 3 main meals but everyone is different just go with what your body tells you, even if you don't feel like eating just try something small. Hope you get your treatment plan soon so you can start fighting this horrible diagnosis. Let me know how your getting on you've got this.
Thinking of you x
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