Hello
I am 47. I am a single parent (the only useful parent) of a 9 year old.
I noticed blood in my stool around 2 months ago. Reported it straight away - FIT test 379 ug. Doc said wair two weeks repeat test, next one came back 400ug. Sent for colonscopy. Told 'likely have cancer'.
Huge 60mm lesion in sigmoid colon flat with depression (since read giant lesion, more likely to be aggressive because flat and more likely to be invasive because depressed). Absolutely terrified I will be told stage 4 (3 at best).
I had no clear early symptoms and screening is not offered under 50 :( so no chance or opportunity to find it early and give me a dogs chance.
I am so scared. I know I need to get results but know once the doctor speaks my life could be officially cut short. And once words said it will become reality.
It terrifies what will happen for my dependant 9 year old if I dont make it.... doesnt bear thinking about. If told months or a year it would be hanging over us. I know pressure to be positive and 'strong'. But I feel neither just now.
Take this cup from me.
I read odds of it being caught early when irs 60mm, flat and depressed is very unlikely so hard to stay hopeful. I just think is death sentence. Get through today and hear my fate in morning. Hell.
Is thers any hope?
