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 Tomorrow I get my CT Scan and although to everyone I am a strong person, sensible and accepting of everything, which I am, which I am not.

 I wish I wasn’t getting a CT Scan. Dreading it. These scans find things that sometimes people are better not knowing about. I already know about the bladder tumour. I don’t want to know about anything else.

 Tonight I have drank a half bottle of red wine and smoked two cigarettes. I know. OMG!! 

 Headcase! 

  • Hi Mack. It is hard trying to calm the nerves before these procedures. The thing with scans is that you are not told anything on the day. The images go away to be analysed. So try not to worry tonight and save it for another day. Best wishes.

    Best wishes to All,   rily.

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  • Best wishes for your scan.Jane 

  • Good luck with your scan, we all know the anxiety you are feeling, but tomorrow you wont find out anything , its just a day like the others. Keep in touch and let us know how you get on. 

    Much love Angela x

  • Hi Mack 

    My poison is chocolate so I get you re wine and cigarettes. The thing is they don't help either. What helps me is realising that all I can do with this illness is accept I am not in control but that I am doing everything I can do to get over it. 

    CTs are a regular thing in our lives. They don't hurt and once done I go off and do something I enjoy. The waiting goes off into the background (after several years of practice) and I deal with the report when I get it. Up to now, as far as the cancer is concerned, it has been good news. 

    I have had to deal with things picked up on scans, and in fact they have  also been life-saving, however much I wish I didn't know about them  the fact I do means I can deal with them.

    My tip with scans, have a scan outfit- no metal so no need for a gown, chat to other patients,  smile at the person cannulating me, ask about how busy they are (forget myself), have a short lie down - remembering some deep breathing until told to hold my breath, and out for a nice coffee with my husband.

    Worry about the results (or not) when I get them. Works for me and maybe with practice for you.

    All the best,

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