My mini melt down

Hi Nigel, I totally understand your feelings . I think this is the place where we feel safe to have a meltdown when we are overwhelmed or anxious . The shock of a cancer diagnosis absolutely messes with your thoughts. We look at our loved ones and wonder all sorts of frightening and sad things that we havent had to think about before. Sometimes it can get on top of us and we need to share it to stop it going round and round. I shall be taking a trip to maggies soon to ask for their help as I have had too much sadness in the past couple of years. Thanks for posting Nigel xx

Hi Angela, I need to get some help also, when I’m feeling up to it I will drop into Maggies…

hope you also get some help.

Love to all Nigel xx

And we will probably get beaten by Real madrid tonight , that really doesnt help to calm the nerves. And its cold and wet , i must be bonkers 

Hahaha at least you still have something to play for… 

gonna take the dog for a walk…he cheers me up x

Hi Nigel,

I must have missed the melt down, but Angela has put this perfectly. Angela always knows what to say.

Everyone here is on their own journey, but they are not alone. There is no right or wrong way to how you feel.

It's great you're thinking of getting help. I hope this helps you.

I see things slightly different at the moment. I look at my wife and I'm grateful it's me going through this rather than her. I think I'm coping better having the treatments than I would if someone close was going through it, if you know what I mean. 

Cancer is a bugger, they found a tumour on my younger brother's kidney last week, but it's straight in with an operation for him. So I've been on the kidney forums getting some info etc.

Just had BCG number 16, so it's plenty of loo trips for me today lol. But can't complain (but I will)

We'll get through this and if we freak out a bit every now and then, then so be it.

Take care mate. 

Trevor 

Thanks for your kind words Trevor, really sorry to hear your kid brother is going through it . I hope he gets the best of treatment and recovers quickly. Number 16 is an achievement in itself Trevor, well done man, hope its not too harsh on you x

Cheer's Angela.

I'm hoping to do all 27, and the 6 monthly breaks are helping for sure. I heard that some hospital trusts are saying 18 is the new requirement on BCGs, but will do as I'm told if I can, but wouldn't complain if they changed it to 18 for me.. lol.

Thanks for your message about my brother. I had a bit of a shock when I found out how big the tumor t is (200mm), but had some nice informative post's on the kidney forums.

Sorry to hear you're not feeling your best also. Hopefully Maggie's will help you also.

Take care.

Trevor 

Life can really throw some stuff at us Trevor cant it ? sending you some love and care to get you through BCG day xx

Cheers Trevor, I hope your brother is ok…

yep Angela is great, as are you all… 

your doing great, #16 

Nigel xx

Hi Nigel,Sorry to hear you have had a bit of a melt down.I hope you can get to Maggies.How is the dog ? Love Jane xx