Suicidal

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I have been diagnosed Bladder cancer stage 4.

I am starting chemo next week to last 3 months, with bladder removal in January. My chances of cure have been given at 50%.

My wonderful wife has been so supportive, but initially blocking out the chance of my death or even of having cancer, the possability is now coming to her.  From yesterday she has started panic attackes, shaking, short fast breaths, crying & being sick. The GP has prescribed beta blockers but we have not yet got the pills.

We moved to a remote location in Scotland just a few months before the virus, we know very few people. My wife cannot drive, although I have just bought her a car & am teaching her. She confided in me yesterday that she is planning suicide if I die. She does nto want to live without me. I do not want this. I have worked hard my whole life to give her a nice house in wonderful Scottish highlands.She is not close to her family, we have no friends in our new location & she will not phone Samaritans or Macmillan.

I do not know what to do, but typing this is my first step to try to help her.