I have been diagnosed Bladder cancer stage 4.
I am starting chemo next week to last 3 months, with bladder removal in January. My chances of cure have been given at 50%.
My wonderful wife has been so supportive, but initially blocking out the chance of my death or even of having cancer, the possability is now coming to her. From yesterday she has started panic attackes, shaking, short fast breaths, crying & being sick. The GP has prescribed beta blockers but we have not yet got the pills.
We moved to a remote location in Scotland just a few months before the virus, we know very few people. My wife cannot drive, although I have just bought her a car & am teaching her. She confided in me yesterday that she is planning suicide if I die. She does nto want to live without me. I do not want this. I have worked hard my whole life to give her a nice house in wonderful Scottish highlands.She is not close to her family, we have no friends in our new location & she will not phone Samaritans or Macmillan.
I do not know what to do, but typing this is my first step to try to help her.
That sounds like a great solution all round Coojee. Well done you. Amazing for your wife to spend time at the Mac centre, much better for you both. You can relax and get on with your treatment and she can feel close to you with other people who understand. I think the well-being centre next to the cancer wing at my hospital also provides accommodation for families when needed. Do you have a named Clinical Nurse Specialist or Macmillan nurse? These wonder nurses can really help oil the treatment wheels. Sending you love. Hx
Thank you everyone. It's the Maggie's centre which has been so helpful. I'm very grateful to them.
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