Hi all, feeling pretty frustrated and upset with myself right now. I was meant to have BCG number 18 today and rang to tell Lucy I had a bit of the sniffles and my eye is a bit gooey and sore, should I wear a mask when I come in ? She cancelled it till next week ! I just burst into tears, this endurance test is hard and I just wanted to get it over with and get to the 6 month break. I know she is right, I am just a bit gutted at it dragging out another week . Sorry for the rant, I have not been myself since my brother passed and finding things set me off more quickly these days . Much love to all xx
Thanks Garviv,
Feeling a bit less emotional now, the tears have helped to clear my gooey eye, always a silver lining eh ? Mr Halofan thinks it may be a blessing as we are off to a 60th at Rhiw on Llynn peninsula on Friday , we will see .
Hope you get a chance at Golf today.
Much love Angela x
Thanks Jane , I never know from one day to the next what this cranky old body will do, since i started with long covid, its mostly guess work Sometimes it really gets to me, yet there are times when I can be quite philosophical and say ‘well why not me ‘? Today was a why me day , I need to have a word with myself.
Hope you are feeling a bit better today xx
Much love Angela x
Hi Halofan,
as the kids say - 'you do you', which I take to mean we all have permission to feel bad sometimes.
I am finding it strange that having almost sailed through chemo, operation, immunotherapy and various long-lasting side-effects I have been quite upset over a few small things at home of no real account in the grand scheme of things.
But I'm facing up to them now and telling them to take a flying f...
Hope you can do the same.
Best wishes,
Latestart.
ps just remembered something an American flatmate once told me - you get more out of the swearing if you link up your swear words and shout them, getting louder as you carry on eg 'Hot Sh.. F... Sh.. Screw etc etc - tried it once at a bus stop when I missed the bus into an early lecture. The driver stopped at the junction and let me on (even though he can't actually have heard me) - waving your arms about and looking furious must have been enough
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