Hi all, new to this so please be gentle! So, Late December had a couple of days where I noticed a tiny drop of blood after finishing a number one, went to docs finally got an ultrasound and ended up getting an urgent (lol that’s another story) referral as have found a soft tissue mass in bladder 150mm? After a lot of self rectification of poor communication between surgery and hospital I now have a CT scan this Friday. 2ww I wish!! I am a hypochondriac at the best of times, I have never run from a fight but, I can honestly say this is the worst and scariest time I’ve ever experienced, I can’t sleep and have had some really overwhelming thoughts/feelings so far. Did the “standard Google research” which pretty much ended with me freaking out and planning my demise!? Am I normal?? God I hope this will be ok, I can’t imagine having to tell my kids 21 & 24 if I am ill. After a career in the military I thought I was robust but this unknown is terrifying. Anyway enough of my positivity!! Just wanted to say hi, send my best to you all and finally admit to someone that I am truly, so, so scared!
Hi Robbo,
I think we all have a GSOH here, and many of us even have our own teeth, too.
You are in the right place for sensible, well-informed and matey help. Welcome to the unit.
You have done the right thing to seek immediate help, the CT scan will be very useful to identify any problems and build the diagnostic picture.
My mind what a whirl when I was actually diagnosed, but it has got better as diagnosis and treatment has progressed, I hope it’s the same with you.
all the best
Leo
Hi Leo, thanks for the welcome. I only hope as this progresses I will be able to return the favour to others in need of grounding in the future. It’s horrible, the not knowing phase. One minute this world is great and the next (for me anyway, I have an overactive mind) feeling overwhelmed. Still, like you said, we have our teeth! Mostly!! Whatever happens moving forward I will always appreciate everything a lot more, I feel happy, (terrified) and grateful that there are genuinely kind and good people still existing on this wonderful planet (I haven’t met many in the past few years). Take it easy and thanks once again for the welcome
Robbo79,
We are either all in the same boat, or have been in the past. I am still awaiting the results of the last TURBT, for example. But, the main thing is that I am in the NHS machine and things are happening quite quickly.
We are all here to support each other on the journey.
all the best
Leo
aka Captain Rose-Pee
Hey Leo, by the sounds of it you’re a nose ahead of me at the moment. I’ve been bouncing around the system for a bit, ultrasound found a bladder mass and since then it’s all gone a bit wrong, finally getting a CT tomorrow and booked in with urologist on the 15th. I have the anxiety of a child that can’t sleep on Christmas Eve! Hopefully all goes well for all of us! Stay strong!!
wibble!!
Hi Robbo78,
Welcome to this group, I don't think I can add any more advise from what you've already been given, but I'm a waffler so here goes.
Everything is a blur at the beginning and very hard to comprehend for sure. I know it's hard to believe but it does get better (did for me). I don't mean the physical stuff, but the concerns, fear of the unknown etc.
I was 51 when I got diagnosed (November 2022) and thinking back to how I was at the beginning is chalk and cheese.
You can click on my profile to see my journey so far. Many poster's have their stories on their profiles, if nothing else it's a quick reference etc.
There are experienced and lovely people on this forum and they helped me for sure.
Anyhow I wish you all the best.
Kindest Regards
Trevor
Whatever cancer throws your way, we’re right there with you.
We’re here to provide physical, financial and emotional support.
© Macmillan Cancer Support 2025 © Macmillan Cancer Support, registered charity in England and Wales (261017), Scotland (SC039907) and the Isle of Man (604). Also operating in Northern Ireland. A company limited by guarantee, registered in England and Wales company number 2400969. Isle of Man company number 4694F. Registered office: 3rd Floor, Bronze Building, The Forge, 105 Sumner Street, London, SE1 9HZ. VAT no: 668265007