Hi im awating results for bile duct cancer im so scared my heads a mess right now feel like im having nervous breakdown . My family are so supportive but i feel so alone . I hate seeing them in pain too. Im 58 years old dont have friends that have stayed in touch my life as just revolved around my family. I dont know how to deal with my feelings right now im either crying my eyes out or wanting to end it all. Ive got so much anger too its all eating away . My results of ct scan should be back this week and im terified whats next
Hello Trishab
A warm Welcome to the Online Community although I am so sorry to find you joining us. I am Brian one of the Community Champions here at Macmillan.
I have just noticed your post has gone unanswered. I can't answer it myself as I have a different cancer, however by me replying your post will be "bumped up" to the top of the page and I hope seen and answered by other members of the bile duct group.
Your feelings at this moment are natural and most of us feel like you do prior to receiving a diagnosis and a treatment plan. I can assure you that once you have a plan and know your diagnosis things do get better.
Please do call our Support Line on 0808 808 00 00 (8am to 8pm 7 days a week) the folk on the support Line will be able to help with your worries and anxiety.
Best wishes - Brian.

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Hello Trishab
I just joined this group this morning after being diagnosed with bile duct cancer on Wednesday. I'm 63 and like you, didn't stay in touch with friends. While awaiting results, that seemed like forever, I did Google quite a bit. I know this isn't for everyone but I had actually prepared myself for the result by doing so. While it was very sad to get the diagnosis I had saved myself the shock. It was actually good that the wait was over. I am now going through emotions of being upset and angry. Of course I hope that your test is clear but if not and we find ourselves in the same boat I'm happy to listen if you wish. My next step is another MRI to see if it has spread so I'm playing the waiting game again. I have been referred to Addenbrookes for the next steps.
Hello LoveMyDachshund
i am so sorry to find you joining us but it's a great place for help and support and Addenbrookes is one of the best hospitals in the UK for cancer treatment.
Here's the link you need to click on to join this group:
Just click on the link and when the page opens up, click on "join" on the black banner at the bottom of the page.
Do remember our Support Line on 0808 808 00 00 (8am to 8pm) is there for you should you need it to help with your emotions or anything else.
If you need any further help in navigating the Community please do get back to me.
I wish you well going forward.
Best wishes - Brian.

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Im so sorry your going through this . The waiting is the worst. Ive also been trying to prepare myself for the worst but i think its still going to come as huge shock. I just keep crying and cannot seem to fucus on anything else. Of course ill be here for you too can message me anytime hopefully support each other. Thankyou for replying
Thankyou for replying really appreciate it. These emotions are so strong one minuite im crying then im angry then im sad as i feel like im upsetting my family although they have done nothing but support me i feel like i cant say to much for upsetting them. Im so scared . Thankyou for replying im also here for you all if needing to chat .
Hello Trishab
It's no problem, we are all in the same "club" just with different cancers and it's hard for people who don't have cancer as most of them don't "get it". You have a kind of "bond" with others who have cancer.
I am 4.5 years into my journey (you can read this by clicking on my name or avatar) And I have been through every emotion going and being a man on hormone therapy I can cry for England and at any time (including in the pub and at football!!),
There's a great bunch on the Cancer Chat Group here:
There's always someone about if you want a chat - it's not always about cancer.
Best wishes - Brian.

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