First off, you Brits have the best expressions. Wittering is exactly what I've been doing.
It's now been almost 2 weeks since the EUA I moaned about. It's been pretty much as I expected—a day or two of feeling surprisingly great, a lot of bleeding which thankfully soon stopped, then a few really nasty days after the surgical numbing wore off and the nerves woke up. Nothing but an opiate would do for that. A lot of days of lots of discomfort but a little easier to control. Today's my first day really out in the world, off to vote in the primaries and make the long drive to visit my granddaughter.
Before the EUA my lovely doctor emphasized to me that it was likely to be easier than the last one and that she had no intentions of taking biopsies unless she 'saw something.'
Well, when I woke up, still thankfully in a fog, she told me she took THREE biopsies as the area wasn't as smooth as she had hoped.
I'm not freaking out. I haven't had a 'smooth' anus ring in many a long year, due (I assume) to hemorrhoids. But I'm worried. And not just because biopsies hurt.
My follow-up appointment isn't until mid-June. I called her office yesterday and requested that someone call me as soon as the results are available. I don't want to jitter for that long. Hoped they'd have showed up in my patient portal, as often happens, but the very fact that I've heard nothing yet also ups the anxiety.
On a different but related topic, it's interesting to me how much the whole Anal Cancer Ordeal has showed up in my face. For most of my life I was dreadfully uncaring about skin care, tanning hard every summer and not moisturizing enough, so a deeply fissured face is only natural. But I've noticed it's really accelerated over the Cancer Years. The face recognition on my phone and Ipad don't know me any more!
I ain't mad. I've earned every groove and crack. I'm not developing the soft, welcoming old face with lots of smile lines that I'd anticipated.
It's much more Scary Crone. which suits me better anyway.
Suz, you look lovely in your profile though I had to zoom in to look as I am so used to your purple colour!
I never look at myself in the mirror if I can help it-I feel I have aged a lot over the past few years and I don’t like what I see! But I looked today..because I found out yesterday I need to have a surgery on my face of all things, and I wondered how the scar is going to look along with all the lines-I don’t take care of the skin on my face but I should perhaps start! I can’t believe my poor old body is going to have to go through something else, but it’s not cancer so I am thankful for that really. It’s just going to be another visual reminder that I’ve come through something else-I should plot all the lines from my scars across myself and end up with my face in a kind of weird join the dots!
Sarah xx
Yippee that's fantastic news Suz 
So glad they rang you and you didn't have the dreaded long wait till June. Sorry about the butt pain but at least the worry is over.
Well you could have kept quiet about the photo being from ten years ago i had spotted the photo and thought wow your hair has grown so quickly and how beautiful you are looking 
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Love you with short hair too! Oh and witter all you want we are always here to listen to you!
Celebrate your good news
Love and a big hug Carole xx
