ABSOLUTE TERROR

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Hello ladies, just thought I'd update you on the latest. I had an MRI scan last Friday and am booked to see the oncologist on 17th July. So this morning, out of the blue I get a phone call telling me I have an appointment for "something" which requires a general anaesthetic on 7th July and the pre-op assessment is on Tuesday 27th June at 2.30. Well, I was absolutely terrified and ran down the garden to tell my partner, obviously thinking they'd found something terrible on the MRI and I was going to have some hideous operation on the 7th. I made Peter phone the surgeon who was doing the procedure who said, no it's nothing to do with the scan, didn't know I'd had one. The useless oncologist who I saw on 17th April(!) said it would be a good idea for me to have an examination under a general as the last time she'd tried to examine me on 6th March! she'd been unable to do so because it was so painful.  Why has she waited until now to ask for this examination - over two months and because I'd had a scan on the 16th, I assumed they'd found something terrible. You can all imagine how terrified I was. I rang my sister and frightened her to death - she'd passed out this morning already and she's had two or three tia's - so we were a right pair. 

Anyway, the surgeon said, no, it's nothing to worry about, just so he can have a look at what's going on and why I'm in so much pain after all this time. I nearly told him to read this forum and he'd know why. I did tell him that from this forum I've learned that pain can go on for two years, but he said he just wanted to do this procedure anyway - so I suppose I should be grateful, but I'm not. They gave the worst fright I've had since I was diagnosed.

Hope everyone is getting on ok and look forward to hearing from you all Bee Xx

  • Wow, that's some ham-handed handling! Wot the hell?

    I had the under-anesthesia exam, it's how my cancer was diagnosed. I was shocked at how bad the pain was afterwards, for a terrible week and some uncomfortable ones after that. Assemble your coping mechanisms!

    But I'm awfully glad that's all it is. Apparently it really is a Real Thing that stuff gets through the scans and it takes an experienced eye to see up close and personal what's going on.

    Hugs

    Suz

  • Hi Bee ( ),

    It’s all down to chronic timing of different departments isn’t it? It would be too much to ask that they communicate regarding your case! I think we all may have presumed the worst in your shoes too especially with you still being in a lot of discomfort. Hopefully this EUA will give you some answers & fingers crossed a solution to your continuing pain. 

    On the subject of bad timing I wrote a couple of weeks ago about being discharged after my 5 years surveillance, I saw a member of the colorectal team opposed to my surgeon who wasn’t in clinic that particular day or busy with other patients, she had none of my notes with her she didn’t even have them on the computer in the room (that was switched off!) she proceeded to narrate the whole examination pausing to query (out loud) a ‘rough area’ that she then decided was either scar tissue or radiation damage. This unnerved me a little & I asked a couple of times before leaving the consultation room if she was sure that’s all it was to which she replied yes & that’s you discharged only for me to receive a letter on Monday for a further appointment in October!! Needless to say the panic began to rise, I presumed she’d since spoken to my surgeon who wants me back to make sure there really is nothing to be concerned about. I couldn’t just leave it until October so I contacted his secretary who said from my notes he’d definitely made this appointment himself but she’d speak with him & get back to me. She phoned a couple of hours later & said the appointment had been cancelled & he was happy for me to be officially discharged! Again chronic timing, lack of communication & I suspect clerical error but the distress these ‘errors’ cause is no joke is it? 

    Anyway aside from the panic caused I’m pleased it turned out to be nothing to be too concerned about & I hope the EUA goes well next month. 

    Nicola 

  • Hi Suz, thanks for your reply, that's what I suspected would be what would happen if I had this EUA. So this morning I phoned the consultant's secretary and explained that i'm going along fine, no real pain any more, I have my prunes in apple juice every night and they keep everything nice and soft and there's no problem, so I really didn't want an invasive procedure like this, just when things are getting better. What happened was that they had their multi-disciplinary meeting and told the appointments clerk to set up the appointments and this was done within about 20 minutes I think!! They got before themselves, because one of the specialist nurses was supposed to phone me to discuss it all before an appt was made. You can imagine how terrified I was, having had an MRI scan, then being called in for "something that needed a general anaesthetic". The clerk had no idea why I was having it, so you can just imagine how my mind was rushing about overtime, panicking, it was dreadful and I was in shock for quite a while. So anyway, following my phone call, Caroline, one of the specialist nurses phoned me back and said it was because of the MRI scan I'd had that there was "thickening" of the anal canal, which is usual after radiotherapy, but they wanted to do this EUA, just to be sure it wasn't anything sinister. I said I had no bleeding and was almost out of pain, so she had to agree it would be silly to disturb it all, now it's all healing nicely. - Phew!!! What a relief. I did make a proviso tho, that if after my meeting in clinic with Dr Flubacher, my oncologist, she still wanted this procedure done, I guess I'd have it. I'm not keen at all because everything seems fine now, so fingers crossed for the 17th July. Thanks for your support.

    Bee Xxx

  • Hi Nicola, Thanks for your good wishes. I've replies in detail to ridetbred (Suz), so have a look at that.  Bee Xxx

  • Hello Bee

    How can some hospitals get it SO wrong?  My reaction would have been exactly the same as yours and the fact that you just had a phone call and that was the first you knew of it is mind-boggling.  I am so pleased it has all turned out ok, and interestingly, I had exactly the same result in my January scan - a very slight 'thickening' at the site of the tumour.  The oncologist told me she was positive it was nothing but that they would check just to make absolutely sure.  So I had a sigmoidoscopy with sedation and all was fine.

    I hope both you and your sister have recovered,

    Irene xx

  • Hi Irene, what does a Sigmoidoscopy entail, perhaps I'd be better off with that if I do have to go through any procedure. I would have a general, no matter what they suggest. I haven't spoken to my sister yet today, but must do so. Thanks for your lovely reply. Bee Xx

  • It took about an hour's prep - I was given an enema and had a cannula ready for sedation.  A small camera is inserted in your back passage and is pushed higher into the rectum to take photographs.  It wasn't painful and was all over very quickly.  But if they want to do a bit more searching with you and take biopsies, I think I would go with what they have offered you.  Certainly a general anaesthetic isn't offered with a sigmoidoscopy to my knowledge and if you suffered excessive pain in the past they are obviously taking that into account.

    Best of luck, Bee, not too long to wait.

    Irene xx