I had a colonoscopy and was told I had a tumor 30mm 4 inches from anus, but my consultant did another colonoscopy 8 days ago, and I have only tumor that's 4cms from my anus, and is 35mm. I was looking at a big op through the stomach, now I'm all over the place again, he's sent my scans and reports to Manchester, to see if someone there can do the op locally, but I may lose my anus, the tumor is T2, and he says they have a piece of equipment in Manchester that they can use to see how far its gone through the wall of the bowel, it's on the front, towards the vagina. He says that they may be able to do the op through the anus, or try radiotherapy and chemotherapy, or it may be the op through the stomach. I'm not bothered about having to have a stoma, but I'd like to be able to have an input into what they can do. I don't know what to do. Its going to take approx 2 weeks for Manchester to get in touch, then they will go from there, but they've just built a Christie hospital onto the site of the hospital where I live just 2 miles away. It's a ultrasound that can be inserted into my bottom and see how far the cancer has gone through the wall of the bowel. I had my initial colonoscopy on the 11th June, and the Dr was fairly certain it was cancer, so I had the CT scan and MRI, I don't know what to do. People around me are taking the news a lot worse than I am, I feel I have to be strong foe them. My other half is terrified, he told the consultant, my sister seems to be worried she may have cancer, she is a bit of a hypochondriac!! I feel lost, like I'm on an island that's getting smaller and smaller, I don't know what to do, or say, or questions I should ask. There have been a few people on here who have been helpful, and very nice, even though they too are suffering with, or just diagnosed with cancer, or are supporting loved ones who have cancer. My hubby won't let me make a cup of tea, my sister rings me every day, but they both want affirmations from me that I'm going to be ok, and I can't do that, although I may say it's going to be ok, I don't know that I will. The only ones who are treating me like normal is my cats!!! I'm just venting I guess, I've been told I will probably lose my anus, I didn't ask him what that meant, but someone on here did tell me. I guess I'm lost and can't talk about what's going in, in case I upset my husband or sister. They're the 2 most important to me, I don't have kids, also my nephew and his kids are very worried, my sisters son. My brother wasn't interested, I don't think he believes me, his son, who's has 4 girls that I adore, he's not even contacted me, though I rang them so they didn't hear it from someone else, now his girls don't contact me, the youngest girl is 8. As I said my island is getting smaller, it's like some people think they can catch cancer if they've been around me. Also in the last few days my bottom has become very itchy and is getting painful. I don't know if I should tell someone, and if so, who do I tell. Getting a telephone appt with my GP is so difficult, and it's classed as routine, so it's very 3 weeks til they can just call me. My consultants going on holiday for 2 weeks, and my details have gone to Manchester,I'm lost and trying to be strong for people, while I'm slowly drowning in worries that I can't vocalise in case people start to worry more, and make themselves ill. Just venting, I apologise for the long thread and for being a pain to anyone who reads this, I'm just releasing my feelings and worries I guess.
