Just need to have a rant. Don’t know where else to turn. Been on cancer journey for 2 years+ with partner who started with laryngeal cancer, which required removal of voice box, radio, chemo, the works. Spread to lungs, more chemo, immuno. Before Christmas developed a tumour in jaw, surgery to remove, radiotherapy, blah blah. Then a couple of months ago, started to show signs of forgetfulness and irrational behaviour, had CT scan, showed secondary on brain. Further surgery, in and out of hospital, radio again, yada yada. Now back on chemo for lungs still not resolved. Chemo having worst effect, tiredness, nausea, red raw skin breakouts, and feeling like crap most of the time. It’s been hell. Feeling so angry, and alone. Quality of life affected, want to cry, just angry angry angry that it’s been like this, painful to watch the deterioration in someone who used to be so active and engaged, now a shadow of former self. Friends always say ‘’Im here if you need to talk ….’. What am I supposed to say? Life sucks, boo hoo, everyone has their problems, who wants to listen to some misery moaning about their woes? Especially when their lives are so happy and normal, aargh. Just need a place where my thoughts won’t leave the room. It’s been hell really.
Hello Shanna16
That's just what this little space is for - to let things out.
It's only people who have cancer and the family know just where you are at -it's hard - it's cruel and you are all alone.
B74 in the post above mentioned the support line - they are great - just call them 7 day's a week. on 0808 808 00 00 (8am to 8pm).
The other one is do you have a "Maggie's" near you - this is a cancer support centre for you and all the family - to find you nearest - here's the link-
I hope this helps - if I can do anything for you - further support or just a chat please feel free to come back to me - I know how you feel and you need to look after yourself.
Best wishes - Brian.
Macmillan Support Line - 0808 808 00 00, 7 days a week between 8am-8pm
Strength, Courage, Faith, Hope, Defiance, VICTORY.
I am a Macmillan volunteer.
Hello Shanna16
It's fine to vent - we all do it - when it's bottled up we just "simmer" with it and the people we love get the flack.
There's always someone here for you - and you have hit the nail on the head
It’s a lonely journey, and only those who have travelled it understand.
Take care and look after yourself - we are with you here.
Best wishes - Brian
Macmillan Support Line - 0808 808 00 00, 7 days a week between 8am-8pm
Strength, Courage, Faith, Hope, Defiance, VICTORY.
I am a Macmillan volunteer.
