Sometimes, just sometimes, I wish there were someone for me. The problem with always being perceived to be strong is that there isn’t anyone there to understand you might not always be.
I was trying to help someone, not on here, who doesn’t even have cancer, but who is very anxious. It seems that anxious people only want to connect with other anxious people to fuel their own anxiety. I don’t understand this at all, They don’t really want to listen to someone who knows what you should be worried about, or to take advice from someone who knows what they’re talking about.
And then I get a message when I’m going to bed yesterday from someone saying, what should I do? Arrgghh…am not a doctor, this is not my job. I can advise, say what I think, but I am NOT a doctor. And this was from someone who hasn’t messaged me for a long time, so clearly only does so when I might be useful. Though I feel bad even thinking that, never mind saying it.
No -one seems to actually think there might be something going on in my life. You know, a partner on the 2 week pathway having a general anaesthetic tomorrow.
I am just having a vent here now because it’s safe. I’m not falling apart, I’m not distressed, but sometimes I am just damn sorry for myself. Just sometimes, and only for a VERY short time. Sometimes I just want to scream, but tomorrow I’ll be fine. And it will be ok.
This is a brilliant place to release all that pent up emotional rubbish youre dealing with.
My daughters a psychotherapist and has had the worst year. She’s taken up wild dipping ( she doesn’t like swimming much). Anyway February 12th she was in St Ives she walked out into Porthminster sea a screamed and screamed. Nobody heard her and it helped.
But I think I’d rather have the Room.
You scream Sarah.
xxxx
Ann
Bit nippy for me to go in the sea Ann, but good just to have somewhere to release the frustration and give a silent scream! I’m fine now having done that!
Sarah xx
Yes I agree I went to st Ives two weeks later. No way I would do it. Freezing. Though it’s really good for your well being I’m not sure it’s too good for stoma’s. Imagine freezing cold pouches No not for
Have a good day . X
Ann
