I'm 31 years old and have always been a mama's girl.
On 3/30 she wasn't feeling well, went to the ER. She was diagnosed with "metastatic colon adenocarcinoma" AKA stage 4 colon cancer. It has spread to her lungs and her liver. Uncurable, Terminal they say.
All of a sudden life just didn't make sense. Why her? She's the best mom in the world and I cannot imagine living my life without her. I am unsure on navigating all of my feelings because I have just shut them off as my focus is her recovery. Ensuring she has a healthy diet, attends her chemo's, and stays active.
I have other siblings who have not stepped up and I feel I am doing this all on my own. My youngest sibling is 13 and telling him was absolutely heartbreaking. I also worry about him and his emotional state.
I am not one to talk about how I feel, but this felt like a safe space to be human for a moment and not the soldier trying to ensure my mom can stay alive.
