My Dad has Alzheimers and was diagnosed with prostate cancer which has also spread to bones and lymph nodes. He was diagnosed a year ago and was given approximately 9 months to live. He was then moved into a nursing home. Dad is still with us but is really going downhill. He isn't aware of the cancer. He isn't receiving any treatment other than pain killers. The past couple of days he is refusing food and has very little to eat, he is drinking. He has also just developed a DVT in his leg. His Alzheimers is really bad too.
I'm his only child and we gave been always so close. I'm massively struggling with everything. Watching my Dad deteriorate is the hardest thing ever. I'm so anxious, I'm scared I can't cope with lookig him and I panic that everytime I say bye its going to be the last time. The doctors are unable to give me a prognosis. I struggle with guilt as I can't get there everyday to see him (I have 2 children and run a business) . I go every other day. I'm already grieving for my Dad. I'm.just not coping with this and the prospect of loosing my special Dad.
Hi Lovekassiopi
Sorry to read about your dad and hope that the nursing home is working out well for him. Many people find the support they can get there is so helpful in that we can become the loving child again rather than full time carer.
There is quite a good article on anticipatory grief on the main site. How old are your children? We have advice for them too. I bet your dad is proud of you with the business though but it does add pressure so remember to look after yourself as well.
<<hugs>>
Steve
