My husband was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer in his stomach last year. After surgery and chemo he was given the all clear. But after feeling unwell and us arranging our own private scan, we discovered it had returned and spread to his peritoneal lining. He can have palliative chemo, but has only “several months “. He’s since been in hospital with blood clots and a pulmonary embolism. They did a stomach drain to relieve pressure at the same time.
I’m trying so hard to be strong and as positive as I can, but it’s so hard. I have meltdowns in the middle of the night when he’s asleep.
But I’m so scared of what will happen when he gets worse and when he goes. We don’t have children so there will just be me. Friends keep telling me I’m part of their family, but I don’t want to be a burden.
I’m trying to cry quietly while writing this so he doesn’t ask what’s wrong…
