Hi,
both my sister and best friend have terminal cancer and are not expected to live until Xmas, they both got there diagnosis not long after each other, I feel selfish talking about my feelings to anyone as there both dying and I’m not, I feel so angry and sad and worn out with feelings. I can’t eat or sleep properly and my body has come out in an itchiness that stings and leaves me red raw from scratching. I think that’s partly due to menopause aswell. Right now everything seems overwhelming and I feel like I’m not coping very well.
I just keep crying thinking about them not being here.
I ended things with my partner 8 months ago we were meant to be getting married next year but I gave him the ring back because I felt like I was constantly hurting him and I just didn’t want to carry on.
life is fkn cruel sometimes and my thoughts haven’t been to good about me being on this earth. If I could swap places I would. I have friends and family but they don’t seem to understand I tell them I’m struggling, they look at me with sympathetic faces but have nothing to say, or if they do there saying “oh there still here make the most of it” which doesn’t help one bit. I wish my mum was here to give me a hug, I feel like everything is just painful right now.
Hello again, I have no problem recollecting memories about Mum but my brother does so you are not alone there, we have to remember that you have just had a double loss so that’s going to be so much more difficult for you to process. You have been incredibly brave and I imagine supportive to everyone else. I do experience numbness and if I try to talk about Mum I immediately start crying I imagine that is because of my illness as I do so wish she was here!!!
keep strong but make sure those lovely grandkids and their mums and dads are around often to support you!
I shall be thinking about you, keep in touch xxx 
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Hi,
aaawww yes I can remember mum she passed 4yrs ago, I have never felt grief so much as I did with her, I feel like grief is different for each person because we loved them in many different ways. I’msorry for the loss of your mum, just know she is right there with you holding and supporting you in spirit. ️ yes I’ll have to keep that in mind that I’ve had two big losses, and it’s early days. I have so many little reminders of them around the house which is comforting. And I’m saying good morning to there photos every day. I still do this with my mums pic and write her a letter to tell her how I’m doing, It makes me feel I’m not alone.
Thank you so much for your kindness and reaching out. It means a lot right now, big hugs xx
