Feeling lost and lonely

Dear Sal, forgive me for probably intruding in your anticipated fears.  Jean & I were thrown into very similar in 2018 when I was diagnosed with metastatic prostate cancer too.  I too was told I had no hope of recovery, & am treated with a hormone injection every 3 months to keep the nasties in check. The first year was bad.  I was depressed & found it just as difficalt to cope.  

The worst for me is that it has limited my level of energy to about the first 5 hours of each day.which is a problem for me since I have been a photographer most of my life, & my activity limit means I can no longer be out & around with my camer for hours at a time.  As time has gone on though I have become far more focused on using my energy carefully.

.  I now produce my pictures as message cards, with only a few full sized prints for sale & this year I have been asked to exhibit some as part of our Town Art Festival.  This has helped me enormously.  I am learning to live in the present, & not to use the thought "If only I could as I used to." We who have suddenly been given a limit on our lives still have a future...be it a shorter time. 

Please stay in contact with your hospitals Cancer Nurse & talk these things through face-to-face, & perhaps contact a local cancer or Prostate Support group.  Yours sincerely Phillip.