Hi, I'm new to the forum. My husband has been fighting stage 4 bowel cancer since Aug 2019 at the age of 47 but recently things haven't been going well.
After a great response to Cetuximab he was given the chance of a liver resection which took place over the Christmas period in 2020 but after the chemo stopped working it has been downhill ever since. He's now on 2nd line palliative treatment which is giving him all the awful side effects but yet the cancer has now spread to the lungs.
After helping him apply for ill health retirement at work, the medical form from the oncologist dealt us such a blow, giving him less than 12 months to live. He doesn't know (& doesn't want to know his prognosis). I'm finding it hard to come to terms with it. We've been through so much. He'd been in hospital at the beginning of February for an infection and since coming out he hasn't been the same. Not eating much and has lost a lot of weight (dietician involved) which I find distressing. He's always tired but I try to encourage him to walk around the house/garden only I get shouted at because he's tired and doesn't want to do anything. I'm finding it hard to see him like this. My mum is a great support but we don't have any kids and his parents just leave us to it (they don't know his prognosis). I'm scared for the future and constantly wondering if he is nearing the end but feel guilty for thinking this at the same time. I'm sat here writing this in tears....
