Hi, new to the group.
I needed to find somewhere to let my feelings out and im hoping this will help. My brother has late stage kidney cancer that is now secondary in his lungs. He is 43, married and is Dad to 3 young lads. My heart is broke.
He has been dealing with this diagnosis for two and a half years and we are now getting close to the time when he will have to have a break from his chemo, when that happens he will go into the hospice and he will have about 10 days left, at most.
I keep breaking down at work, I have just been signed off for 2 weeks because im not dealing with it very well at all. I'm an emotional wreck. I can't even look my mum n dad in the eyes because it hurts so much to see them.
I started drinking, too much, and I've knocked that on the head because I realised it made me feel worse. I can't think about anything else and ive lost myself in a wave of sorrow that I can't shake off.
I don't let my brother know how bad it's affecting me because that wouldn't be fair and I feel like no one understands.
Just to know that how I'm feeling is normal and that I'm not going barmy would help.
