Feeling very discombobulated (can’t think of another word to describe it)
I knew I wouldn’t want to be at work for Daves birthday so I booked the week off. Then something in my head decided it would be a good idea to book the cottage we always used to go to in the Lakes. Couldn’t get the week I needed in June but managed to book in July (I sobbed in my office when I made the booking ) . Before I knew what I’d done I’d arranged to scatter Daves ashes, have a week in the cottage and 15 members of family are booked to go too. It all snowballed - and now I’m worried. People keep saying “I didn’t think you’d want to go back there yet” etc.
I have two lots of ashes - one to scatter and a smaller one to keep with me forever.
Am I rushing it? Is it too soon? Will I regret it?
