Hi all,
I joined today after deciding that I wanted a space to talk out how I’m feeling. My partner was diagnosed in March with Stage 3 kidney cancer which he unfortunately got on his kidney transplant.
He’s 33 and, having read through a couple of posts, is much like other people’s partners in terms of being very positive and upbeat, determined he will beat it. Shortly after his diagnosis, he proposed and we are planning on getting married in October. The prognosis they gave him was 9 months and I’m finding it difficult to keep up the positivity. We are very open about our feelings and communicate well but I regularly cry, which upsets him. I just find it hard not to get emotional about the fact that he could be gone by the end of the year. He is halfway through his first round of palliative chemo and he’s coping really well, you wouldn’t think anything was wrong. But he does have his low days, especially as we are waiting for him to have a scan to see if the cancer has been stabilised. He is also finding it hard to not be working and I don’t know how to help. He wants to make plans for next year but it just upsets me as I don’t see them happening but then I don’t want to give up hope either.
Anyway, I just wanted to get that out there. Best wishes to you all
