My mum's body is riddled with cancer,( lungs, both shoulders, leg, spine to name a few,)she had a terminal diagnosis from November last year she now under the care of the hospice but staying with family as the pandemic would have stopped any of us being with her.
Mum lost the use of her legs Nov due to the tumor found on her spine which has been growing rapidly and taken away use of all function from stomach down.
Mum's tired and just wants to go she says no matter how many times her meds are adjusted there is still pain I feel terrible as I can only visit here and there when my children's carers come to give me respite but sometimes I'm so emotionally and physically drained I can't even do that at times. Me n my kids call or video call daily.
I don't really have anyone I can share my thoughts with that gets any of this and my relationship with siblings is strained so I don't share anything of depth with them.
I just want my mum to be at peace now so she suffers no more, she's had us preparing for her transition from Dec and the kids too I don't like seeing her like this anymore.
(Just a midnight off-load to anyone reading, mums currently in hospital after a mild heart attack yesterday)
Hi Debz79
Welcome to the forum and thank you for having the courage to share, it sounds as if things have been extremely difficult lately, not only for Mum but also for you personally, I can relate and wanted to let you know that I have read your post.
I am so sorry to read a snippet of your Mum's story, and how quickly things have deteriorated since Novembers diagnosis.
I hope that there has been news from the hospital and that you are feeling a little better today, these are difficult times and I wish you all the strength you need to see you through.
Lowe'
