Morning all, hope you are all keeping well.
Had an appointment with my Oncologist yesterday, he authorised another 9 chemo's. But I haven't yet had a scan to see what effect the first round of chemo has had. He said on the basis of questions he's asked me, my responses and the look of the area concerned is a clear indicator that the chemo has had some effect on the tumour. This is positive news right? But still I am mentally unable to accept it and remain pessimistic to safeguard myself. I believe this is because I have no faith and went through such a bad rollercoaster time when they were trying to find a diagnosis. I mean amongst other mishaps they completed a scan and advised me it wasn't cancer I had a bleed. Yeah right, I actually had a 15 cm tumour, how the hells bells do you miss that on a scan huh!! Now when they give me positive news, I struggle to accept it as I'm so scared they'll give me hope but then only take it away again down the line. Does anybody else feel this way?
Food shopping today and I think a cream cake is in order! Hope you all enjoy your day whatever it is you may be doing.
Have a brilliant trip Eddie! Hope you're going to vote before you leave??
Have a good rest today Marie, and hopefully the side effects will ease by tomorrow.
It is pouring down here so I won't be pottering in the garden much today. It is so cold, I've put a heater on! Where has summer gone??
Kate
Morning Marie, I hope your feeling better today and have made plans, which the weather isn't going to spoil, it's grey here with heavy rain later so off to the beach this morning. Need to talk to my auntie/partner later when we're alone, anyway I trust Dave's not working so what are you hoping to do today I see my hospice consultant and my wonderful NC Tuesday. She's fab been going through "you can guess " everything and feel so much better for it, we should wrap things up then, less things to worry about is good, right, and tomorrow is my aunties birthday so party time, which she loves, Jean "auntie ", is having the best time ever with the little ones, and have talked to their mum, she's known Jean all her life, and she's fine with her kids staying on after some of us have to go home,
Eddie xx
Good morning. Really pleased to hear you are having a great time. It's grey here too, we have forecast rain and thunderstorms today. I have had a rubbish week feeling off and doing little but rest. This chemo malarkey is so hit and miss I never know how I'm going to feel. Today is hospital day, going to get my bloods done. I feel like I haven't had a break from the last one. I'm really glad to hear that everything is going well for you this week. That makes me happy. It all sounds so wonderful, the beach, getting rid of your worries, birthdays and parties. Awesome. Enjoy and have much much fun. Take care x
I'm so sorry Marie, I hope I wasn't being insensitive, If I was I am truly sorry, it was never my intention, I didn't know what a crappy week it's been for you, I thought you were feeling a little better on Thursday, are the issues you have the same ones as with your previous chemo sessions and just taking longer to ease, are you experiencing any new symptoms or contacted any of your support team, Marie how are you feeling today, sorry to bombard you with questions but I do care about you.
Eddie xx
Oh lovely don't apologise you have nothing to apologise for. Thank you for your kind words and support it matters a lot to me, you're an absolute star,I really appreciate. This has been an unusual week chemo wise. Although' Ive got the usual symptoms it doesn't normally drag on so. I can feel better one minute then suddenly go down hill. It's just so hit and miss. I've been to get bloods done and then we went to do some shopping. I feel better for that so fingers crossed. I actually feel hungry too so I'm happy to feel that. Daughter is cooking me a pork roast for later. Yummy!! Here's hoping this is the start of better things to come. You take care and enjoy your day x
Hi Marie and thank you, good to hear, you know what you mean to me and I wouldn't want to lose it. I'm glad your feeling a little better andI hope it continues, nice to know your daughters with you and doing a lovely dinner for later, which is what Mandy and I are going to be doing soon, take care.
Eddie xx
Good morning and I hope I find you well. Feeling much much better here. I picked up from Friday onwards and remained well since. We had a trip to bakewell on Saturday. Browsed the shops and had a lovely pub lunch. Yesterday it was job day much to Dave's dismay lol We put up a new bed in the basement and got rid of the old. That will make daughter happy huh. Today I'm gardening. Unfortunately when we went to Scotland on getting back a lot of the plants on the patio had died. I'm guessing from no water. Although I've never known that in such a short space of time. I'm going to have to cut the dead back and decide what to do from there. I'm missing the pretty flowers on the patio.
Anyway enough of me. How are you? And everyone else of course. Are you still in Scotland Eddie? I expect you are having the most wonderful time. What news has everyone? Take care x
Hi Marie, it's good to hear your feeling better, and had a run up to Bakewell too, and a pub lunch must have felt so nice to go somewhere I hope the rain stayed away, so poor Dave's got more assembling to do, talking of Dave I have a photo of my friend who to me looks similar, shame about the plants but they could recover with a little TLC, do they look wilted or eaten ,when you cut them back if there's no green in the stems I wouldn't keep them. Have you anything nice planned for today. Yesterday I took it easy, everyone went to Oban, just my aunties partner, Mandy and I stayed behind to do some baking for my aunties birthday party, today I had an early walk with Poppy , made breakfast for 15, fab with "help" from the little ones, I could blame them if anything tasted funny lol, beach again today, most have already gone just need to get some presents first then catch them up and out for dinner this evening and a very early start home tomorrow, though kids are stopping till Saturday, when Sheila and I will go and bring them home on the train. take care.
Eddie xx
Good morning. I'm not sure I can see any resemblance to Dave lol I guess the beard and moustache is similar. Thanks for the tips re the plants in the garden. They very much look wilted. Usually they come back but I think some of them have had their day. Your trip sounds so wonderful. It sounds like you have such a beautiful family. I'm guessing you're back home now. You must be missing that beach already. I hope the journey went okay and you are feeling rested. Yesterday It was chemo day. It seems to have come round so quickly, I think because I had a bad week last week. It all went well and I wasn't waiting too long. Early night last night and so far feel okay today. Will see how goes it. What plans have you today? I'm shopping and pottering the garden should the rain stay away. Enjoy and take care x
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