Finished my chemo for breast cancer september 2019 hair is growing back finally got eyelashes and eyebrows again back at work only part time but its a start got the most supportive family and friends 2 fantastic kids and the most amazing husband should surely be on top of the world but i just feel so miserable and tired allllllllll the time i'm napping daily i know it sounds so ungrateful because i am well and i made it when there are others out their that werent so lucky, i'm just so exhausted with the whole thing i think everyone thinks thats it shes had her chemo shes "normal" again now but i really don't feel normal don't like keep harping on i'm even sick of me,so you try not to talk about it which results in bottling everything up. Just keep waiting for that feeling of euphoria and brand new lease of life that you see everyone get on the tv.
......before cancer and cancer treatment came along and interrupted our lives we were 'meteorically' like a diamond, yes with some imperfections but we were all something beautiful.
But post cancer and cancer treatments this diamond has been damaged, parts have been chipped off, the shine has gone.
When a diamond gets damaged it can't be put back as it was before..... but it can be re-cut back into a beautiful jewel again.
This transformation requires time and conviction to move on with what life we have been left with and build on this foundation into something better, more wise and can see life through a different lens ((hugs))
I like your tip.. always smile, people will wonder what you’re up to 
I haven’t been smiling much lately but your comment made me smile thank you 
for taking the time to respond it means a lot.
IM FEELING so same and just think it’s me , everyone keeps telling me to move forward now , which is what I’m doing , but unless you been here it’s hard to describe just how you feel , and I’m constantly saying alls good when in fact I feel like my life will never be the same ever again , hopefully in time I will get to the top of the mountain , but seems a long way off at min , I’m smiling and trying to get back to normality but feels such a long way off at timesxx
