I am currently going through treatment for breast cancer. I got diagnosed in October 2025 and am due to finish treatment around April-May this year but I was wondering if you anyone help me with some advice please.
I was tested to see if the breast cancer I have was genetic and it wasn’t but now I still want to have a double mastectomy regardless whilst also keeping my nipples if possible. I am expecting my surgery to be this May and I want to be sure of this decision because I am terrified of regretting it.
I don’t know if I have what is called “gender dysphoria” but I have felt this way for a couple of years because I am somebody who wears binders (compression vests) a lot as somebody who identifies as non binary and I know wearing binders isn't ideal for long term as they get extremely uncomfortable and unhealthy. I was told the surgery would be possible and I feel having it will really boost my confidence as I have never felt “feminine” or “girly” ever since I was a young teenager.
I do not want children so I know I definitely won’t need my breasts for that.
I also have the worry I will be paranoid about having breasts moving forward once I get the all clear because I’m terrified of the cancer coming back regardless of it being genetic or not.
I don’t know if anyone has experienced this before so I understand if it seems bizarre but I honestly feel like since all of this has happened, I have grown to hate my breasts even more and just want them removed completely now as I feel this would be a literal big pressure off my chest!
Thank you in advance.
Hello TrveTheyThem
My name is Steph, my pronouns are she/her. I’m part of the team who look after the Online Community here at Macmillan. May I wish you another warm welcome to the site, I hope you will find it to be a safe place of comfort and support.
I am sorry to read of your breast cancer diagnosis. I hear that you have some conflicted feelings around your relationship with your breasts and plans to have a double mastectomy. I am here to offer you some support whilst you're waiting for other members to reply.
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Hi, Steph,
Thank you so much for your lovely reply 
I have signed up for a Zoom breast cancer group on OUTpatients and sent a form off to UCATS but I see my surgeon on the 26th January to discuss this to see what they say but I am a bit anxious about what they will say mainly from fear of judgement.
I don't want to overwhelm myself but I may contact the helpline as soon as I've spoken to my surgeon so I have more of a clear idea of what may happen 
That link you sent from Living Beyond Breast Cancer sounds very similar to what I am going through so that's interesting to know, thank you!
Really appreciate your help 
