I guess many of us have regrets as our lives draw to an end - as well as all the good memories. For me I regret my lack of honesty with my wife about my sexuality. I have a spanking fetish involving men only. It lives in my head (I’m not into pain!) but I do like the power exchange aspects. I have discussed this with my wife who I love very much, but have not been fully transparent with her. This is partly to save my own embarrassment and preserve the little self esteem I have, but mostly to protect her from pain.
I don’t particularly want advice but I’d be interested to hear from anyone who can empathise, or hear about others’ regrets so that I can offer support. I’m 62, white, English and have a terminal brain cancer diagnosis.
Let me know how you get on with the oncologist in Feb. Fingers crossed 
