hi susan and amanda, been having problems posting on the other post so thought i would carry on here and see if it works!! how has your weekend been? susan do things feel a little easier for you this year or not really? i feel so sorry for you having all those people around you last year when i bet all you wanted to do was run didnt you? its awful with christmas coming isnt it i even go shopping online as to not have to go shopping with all the xmas things about. i feel so selfish and bitter at the moment and dont want to, i can hear my mum saying come on karen dont be like that but its hard isnt it. i feel so lonely tonight i just want to talk and have a cuddle and a kiss with my mum, sometimes it really hits even harder doesnt it? speak to you both soon, and hope you are bearing up. we all need each other dont we? my love and thoughts are with you love karen xxxxx
Hi, Louise, ive got it at last, im just a bit thick i think.
WOW !! dont it look lovely? Liz, you must feel really proud at all your hard work. I have to say, the tiles in the bathroom are the same as what we had round our old house, although our bathroom wasnt so grand as that. And the price !!! Oh to have money, wouldnt it great. I'm going to have another look, then i might go to the ones on The Bishops Avenue, just dreaming.........................
Hi Everybody. lovely day here.Weve just done the sat morning kids football and are now back home for lunch before we have to do the shopping later.
Susan will be back from her hols Jayne- as Karen and i go, so there will be someone about.I am still dreading ours.the nearer it gets,the more stressed i get.I'm sure that Dad and i will end up falling out !!! still, maybe i can manage to bite my tongue for the duration of the hols. how i miss mum!!! she kept dad in order and he's just a complete nightmare now that she's no longer around.
You wouldn't believe the twaddle that he tells me that i'm expected to believe is true!!!!! I can't say anyhting-theres no point.he would get the right sulks,and as im already not talking to my brother i dont want things to go the same way with dad.He's got a good heart- but he's just a compulsive liar!!!!!
Might catch you all later.When are you tackling the hedges and trees Liz??
By the way, i didnt sleep too much better for having gone to bed so late!!! I think i DID sleep soundly for about 3 hours when i first went, because i was so tired, but i still ended up awake at about 4.30 and then the alarm going off at 7 seemed just far too early! weird isn't it. You can always seem to be able to fall into a deep sleep when you know that you should be getting up,so you can't.!!!!!
You had another bad night then, what a flippin nuisance.We had a local paper come through yesterday from ‘the God Squad’, as my husband calls them.Theres a piece in it called ‘getting a good nights sleep’.It says all the usual things that we already know, like: try to relax before you go to bed, take regular exercise, avoid heavy meals, alcohol, smoking etc.,but one thing I didn’t know was:
Try eating a banana before you go to bed – bananas contain an amino acid called tryptophan which is though to convert into a calming and sleep-inducing chemical in the brain call serotonin.
I knew they were good for cramp, that’s why athletes eat them, but I never knew they induced sleep.
I hope you had a good walk with taz and rocky.What flowers are you taking to the cemetery?Hope to see you later, we’re not going out today, so will be here no doubt.See you soon, love jayne xxx
Its lovely here now too, but we’re not going anywhere today.
I hope you start to look forward to your holiday, it will be good to get away, but I really hope you don’t fall out with your Dad, that would be horrible.Like you say, just bite your tongue for a week.
Talking about your brother Marie, guess what??My brother turned up about an hour ago with a huge bouquet of flowers.He was really sorry that they forgot our anniversary and also my husbands birthday.He kept apologising.So that’s that sorted out……. I think.I did say to him that we thought they had fell out with us, but thought it strange because the last time he came round here we left on good terms.A bit miffed they forgot, but at least it wasn’t done on purpose, so no harm done.
Well, I feel like I should be outside doing something, its too nice sitting here, so might go out for a bit then come back later.
Did you remember to feed the pigs Marie?Speak later, love jayne xxx
Well, our postman has just been, better late than never i suppose !!! We just got all our stuff through for the walk we're doing for macmillan on May 13th round Althorp House. All I need now are some sponsors, so it looks like i'll be badgering the neighbours and anyone else who knew mum. I'm surprised they dont do like race for life, where you can sponsor on line, maybe an idea???
Sorry your back is still not too good. Are you going to see more about it now or have you decided just to let it get better on its own?
I’m so pleased that your brother came to visit. Sounds as if it really was forgetfulness on his part. Did you tell him about your jobs? My brother phoned this morning and was really down-crying in fact. He is just like me and feels so foolish that he can still feel like this some days even after all this time. We still didn’t really speak about things though. I felt so sorry for him but at the same time I felt so selfish. I need him to be strong for me. The one good thing is my sister in law is home and doing fine. I still haven’t been told much but she’ll be off work for about 6 weeks.
I’ve finished my chores- for today anyway, (By the way any ideas on keeping a laminate floor “scum” free? No matter how much I clean mine, there always seems to be marks left-drives me mad!!) and have been to the cemetery. I ended up taking roses as I thought the red/yellow colour was lovely. My dad was real rose man and my patch of garden at the front is full of them. I took up far too many for the vase so I’ve tried to arrange the rest on the bottom of the stone. I must try to stop going there so often as I think it perhaps pulls me back down again. As I’ve said before though, at the moment, for some reason, I need to go to feel near to them both. My dad has been at the forefront of my thoughts over the last few days. It’s nearly 3 years since he died and it feels like yesterday still. I keep thinking of the way I acted when he died-taking down photos, trying to carry on as normal etc. How could I’ve been so heartless? I loved him so much. I hope he wasn’t watching!!
Are you off to mow the lawn? You seem much further ahead down south. I haven’t seen anyone at it yet although my dad would have probably started around the end of March. Benji destroyed my grass when he was little so I replaced it with a patio, which my dad laid. He wasn’t fantastic at it but he did his best and was a lot cheaper, bless him.
Sorry for rambling, Jayne. By the way when the others are away gallivanting I’m still here and if I don’t appear here just badger me as I always read the messages-sit here for hours sometimes!!
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Take care of yourself, Jayne.
Lots of love
Louise
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PS just seen your message. I would have sponsored you. It’s for a great cause but if it’s not online I can’t, can I?
Yes Jayne, people are so generous. I made about £800 last year but decided not to ask people this time. It’s not till June so no doubt I‘ll get some more. I must tell my brother about it-he’d better donate something!! I changed the picture because my dad’s hair was flying about and I didn’t think he’d be too impressed. I don’t think any of them would be too chuffed with that one either so I must see my brother and get some photos back.
