hi susan and amanda, been having problems posting on the other post so thought i would carry on here and see if it works!! how has your weekend been? susan do things feel a little easier for you this year or not really? i feel so sorry for you having all those people around you last year when i bet all you wanted to do was run didnt you? its awful with christmas coming isnt it i even go shopping online as to not have to go shopping with all the xmas things about. i feel so selfish and bitter at the moment and dont want to, i can hear my mum saying come on karen dont be like that but its hard isnt it. i feel so lonely tonight i just want to talk and have a cuddle and a kiss with my mum, sometimes it really hits even harder doesnt it? speak to you both soon, and hope you are bearing up. we all need each other dont we? my love and thoughts are with you love karen xxxxx
HI Marie, Gosh it was lonely here today. I thought there would be loads of posts from last night, but no. I ended up cleaning out the bird today, then hoovering, then just sitting on computer doing nothing really. How are you today? My hubby will be home soon, he'll think ive sat here all day (well i have nearly). My knee is a lot better, still not brill, but ok to go out tomorrow, and hopefully be normal for mondays interview. i made a bit of a twit of myself because when she phoned up and asked if i would like to come for interview, i got all excited and i think i shouted a bit loud when i said 'oooh yes, very much so', i could almost see her on the other end holding the phone away from her ear, ha ha. Bet she thought 'silly woman'. Well i'm off to look busy for a few minutes, be back later. Jayne xxx
I hope everyone else is ok - where are you all?? Probably fed up with my idle chit chat.
HI Jayne-- medical centre sounds good to me as well.i have always fancied being a doctors receptionist cause i wouldn't quiz people like some of them do. "whats the matter with you then? is it urgent?" "i dunno.If i did,i wouldnt be wanting to see the doctor today,would i?!!"
What type of thing would you be doing?? Dont worry about sounding too excited.Prospective employers look for enthusiastic employees!!!
Last day of school tomorrow before the Easter hols.How i love school holidays!!! loads of kids cramming round ours 'cause theyre bored at home! Kids knocking to see if our youngest is coming out to play.NO,HE'S NOT !! He's just turned 8 and not old enough to be roaming the streets yet,thanks!!!
Glad to hear you will be able to get about better tomorrow.
Hi Karen-- hope you got on ok at docs.Hope to hear from you later.XXXXX
How are ya? Where is everyone, have they got fed up with us??? I bet its a nightmare round your house in the school hols isnt it? I dont think i could cope with loads of em, trouble is it costs so much to take them out dont it? Have you got anything planned over the easter hols?
Well, here i am having a week off and going bonkers....i actually thought of going in to work today but resisted!
Been shopping and as Susan said it was quite difficult, very hard going to John Lewis (Mums favourite shop). I just sat in a coffee shop most of the time! To be honest, I don't really know how to enjoy myself anymore. When I stop thinking about Mum for a couple of hours, it suddenly all floods back into my head and hits me like a ton of bricks...this is such a tough journey.
Well done Jayne for the job hunting and interview, you're such a positive person I'm sure you will be such a valuable member of any team. Good luck and keep going!
How are you?Well, your weeks nearly over, it sounds like it didn’t go entirely as planned, but I'm glad you resisted going into work.The shopping trip was another step forward, especially going into John Lewis, very hard to do, but its done now and maybe sometime in the future you will find it not quite so hard now you’ve taken the initial step and done it once.It doesn’t matter that you sat in the coffee shop a lot of the time, at least you were out and in the place where you and your Mum used to go, and she would be pleased that you’ve moved forward a little. It is a tough journey Liz isn't it.I have to admit that yesterday after coming on here and finding no one about, I went and sat on the bed, just sitting looking out into mums back garden watching it rain and thinking about things, then cried loads again.I just don’t understand why all this has happened, I can't seem to get my head round it some days.I was trying to put myself in mums position when she was in the hospice and going through everything she must have been thinking, just knowing she didn’t have long left.It upsets me so much, the little things she said some days and how her mind was working.She was just trying to get things in order for us to make it easier when she’d gone.Still putting herself last right till the end, she was just so kind.I'm crying again now, I suppose this is one of my down days again, it’s starting to get on my nerves that I can't control how I feel from one minute to the next, I feel like somethings taken over my mental state sometimes.I guess its normal and we all feel the same.
Thank you for saying I'm a positive person Liz, I do try to look forward and I know that’s what Mum wanted me to do, ‘just carry on’, as she said.My husband thinks I'm a really strong person, if only he knew how much I cry some days.
I have to pull myself together now and get on with things.Do you have any plans for the weekend Liz?How long do you get for easter?I hope you spend today, your last day of hol, doing something nice for you.Just relax, take it easy and be kind to yourself.Have a good day, and hope to see you soon, take care Liz, love jayne xxx
Hi Susan and Louise, you haven’t been here for a few days, I hope you are ok and looking forward to the break.You both deserve some time off.Thinking of you, love jayne xxx
Hi Amanda and Sharon, you’ve been away from here a while and are missed. I hope everythings ok for you.Please come back soon.Thinking of you, love jayne xxx
Hi Jodi, how is everything for you now?I've been wondering how you are and hoping the days are a little brighter for you.You deserve some nicer times ahead.Take care, love jayne xxx
Hi Karen and Marie, you didn’t get back yesterday then?I guess you have a lot to do right now, what with the boys packing up school today.I hope you can get back later and you're both ok.Speak soon, take care, love jayne xxx
