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Hi Susan

Thanks for your post.  Well done to Jonathan for his win (and man u).  You always seem to have really busy weekends Susan, we never seem to do anything!  Although we had a bit of a strange ‘hour’ yesterday. 

On Saturday the people who bought our house came round to ask if we would show them how to work the boiler AGAIN!!!  Honestly, its not rocket science.  So we went round yesterday and it was really weird having to ring our own front door bell.  The front garden was full of daffodils that Mum had put in a few years ago, looked lovely.  I did point this out to the guy.  He let us have a look round at what theyd done.  They’ve ripped all the carpets up, even though they were only a couple of years old and looked like new.  They’ve painted everywhere white, which did look very nice and clean.  They asked us if we would be leaving curtains, poles, lampshades etc, which we did, but have taken them all down and put really naff ones up!!!  I think maybe they have them in their own house now!!!  We also left a brand new shower curtain because we didn’t think it fair to take ours, and they’ve put up a shitty brown one which doesn’t match the bathroom at all.  Me and my husband looked at each other and just turned our noses up (the guy was downstairs,  so didn’t see us). 

When I looked out the back bedroom window it brought back so many happy memories of the bar b ques with Mum and I could see Mum and me, just after I moved in, digging the garden pond out.  What a day that was.  It was really quite sad, but happy at the same time.  Strange feelings.

When we got back here I thought ‘no, this is definitely home’, there is no way I could live there again.  My husband said he didn’t get any pangs at all and is so glad we moved here.  But as I said, it was weird going back there.  Apparently someone moved in (to rent) yesterday afternoon.  I shall be driving by on occasions to make sure they keep the garden nice!! And if they don’t, I will be telling the owners (they live opposite us and just a few doors down).  I sound like a ‘busy body’ don’t I?

Anyway, that was about the highlight of our weekend!!  The weather has been awful here too, lots of rain, but sunny and windy today.  No, there hasn’t been any jobs worth going for in the last few weeks, but I will keep looking and hopefully something will come along eventually.  I hope so as my savings are running out fast!!!

Hi Louise

I hope you're feeling brighter today.   Your spring bouquet sounds lovely, theres so many lovely flowers about right now aren’t there?  I bought some freesias on Friday, Mum loved them, and they smell so delicious I could almost eat them!!

Louise I'm so glad the reports are finished, its worn me out just thinking about you having to do them!!  That’s so sad about the head teachers Mum and also the other colleagues parents.  It does bring everything back doesn’t it.  I guess we have to be grateful that at least we’re a little bit further down the line than them and not having to go through it all again. (even though we still go through it in our minds).  You should just go with how you feel on the counselling Louise, and I don’t think you're doing anything wrong at all.  It just takes a long long time to get through things.  Just keep holding on to the fact that your Mum and Dad are still with you in spirit, they're watching over you and I'm sure they're not mad with you, they just know how much you miss and love them, but not mad.  They will be watching you take flowers each week and will be smiling and thinking what a thoughtful and special daughter you are and always will be to them.