Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
nighty night teresa have good dreams no big macs they bad bad bad for u ye night watch man social worker cleaner first aider camera operator court witness if they realy bad fire warden talking clock bridge watcher for jummpers ...................and everything in between working in high rise flats .........have to be carefull a cup of tea can mean a lot more on a friday and satha ha ha. xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Kate, I'm Still Standing, Better Than I Ever Did! An i'm not an elton fan......welll maybe a bit.
And i'm nearly from Glasgow (15 miles away)......
That shows how slow i am, never realised Mick was away to Bed.....where I def should be....but just got out of hosp today (was only in for 2 days again, though, like last week), and you know that feeling, you should be awake forever.....just in case, ha!
Off to sleep now folks...............one long legged sheep........................two long legged sheep.....................night all, sleep well xxxxxxxxxxx
