Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Melly, could ask the same of you,why you not tucked up in bed hun? Non stop"pile of poo" going round in our heads!!Dont even hear my cock(he!he!) crowing anymore. Everyone havin a bit of a hard time of it at mo.Hard to no wot to say.Just thought of this one! "When someone you love has difficulties....Listen When you are feeling terrible that you cant provide a cure...Listen When you dont know what to offer the people you care about...Listen...Listen...Listen!" xx
hey chickie shezie I never hardly sleep too much running round in this head of mine i think! lol Well it's rather empty cos the brains very small!! lol i always listen sweet i'm getting quite good at it now! Thats the big head of mine speaking now! lol Just being there to listen is all it takes most of the time. I don't always have the answers and probably say loads of things wrong to people sometimes but i'm always willing to listen as sometimes people just want to chat eh? Hope that cock don't wake you up too early can't you gag him for a night! lol Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Chickie teresa another p/m your way sweet I mean wot i say! Never forget that Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Gonna try and get some zzzzzzzzzzz,s now, hope you guys get some sleep.Vodka obscured my thoughts for a while,like i say "its not the answer, but helps me forget the question"! love to all xx
Hey buddy scmooster, im doodling ok and you? see our teams both doodled dood well yesterday MHm scraped a win tday lol Teresa chicks got no chance tomorrow hee hee, just jesting twomble............maybe ..........xxx
No cafe tonight. At home getting me smackers puckered around a bottle of Newkie ! well they've been in the fridge for a week now so I don't want them going past their best by date........only got 6 left.........
