Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
I don't normally bother with a paper but I needed some change this morning so bought one and inside is an advert for a 'Professional Metal Detector'. only £49.95
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Your slower than me in replyin lol
Anyways heres my tale another mad time in Kates life
Now you know i lost the keys with DBs wedding ring on the fob, or I wouldnt be bothered, the cabbie who collected me to bring me home to collect a spare car key, now keep up all the cabbie dropped me of a metal detector ( maybes your right there shezie lol)
Anyways this metal detector has great big earphones like smashey and nicey felt a right fool on the field all alone, headphoned up scanning after a long long while I thought this aint right, not a single bleep for anything So threw down all coins in my pocket, spare keys, dog leads, great big pile of metal, scanned the lot The bugger still didnt bleep
I had scanned at least a mile and a half just another day of kate madness
I bid all goodnight, honestly with days like I have, I need my kip xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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I know what you mean Kate, my mate gave me an 'intelligence proximity detector' I switched it on but couldn't get a sound out of it.
Must be broken.
Goonight mate, sleep tight xxxxxx
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Scmooster can you picture the scene??? How funny suffice to say I still aint got the keys reckon our DB did it all and was creased up off to outside fridge meself now Although I am "weaning" off it all Yeah weaning lol xxxxxxxxxxxxx
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ha ha ha rooster, I may as well of been looking for my intelligance............................................no chance..........................ROFL................xxx
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Now my little secret is to keep the booze upstairs.
When I struggle to get to get up for a fill-up I have 'one for the road' and I'm only a little stagger from bed !
GRIN
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I might get in a bit of a state but at least the booze keeps me regular. Every morning at 7 o'clock I go to the loo. Sadly I don't wake up until 8 !! (LOL)
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I need that dicsipline, I tend to have one for for the road, the pavement, the gatepost, the drive ...................................
Just jestin Mamma Moo before you send me off to the priory..........ha ha ......................xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Just read your other thread and was thinking that if there is a heaven I hope Irene and DB meet up. I think they'd get on like a house on fire.
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Im too slow, cant come back with retorts if your one step ahead, plastic sheets for you xxxxxxxxx
